Losing my nerve

[YoungandStartingover]

Hi.

I'm currently in the process of divorcing my husband of not even 1 year. It was a bad idea getting married and we've been in counseling for most of the marriage... I've tried to do this so many times before and I've finally gotten the strength to go forward with it but I'm starting to lose my nerve again... he's walking around the house crying and saying he's going to leave me with all this debt and when I have to refinance the car (because he won't leave his name on it) they won't give me anything because my credit is so bad (thanks to the debt accumulated in the marriage).

I know that I NEED to do this! But seeing how upset he is makes this hard.. and he had organized our entire church, his family and MY family to call me/text me/email me and tell me how wrong I am, how I need to stay, how much I'm sinning and life will be miserable if I do this, etc..

 

I need support that I can do this. I'm tired of walking on eggshells and dreading going to my own home. I'm tired of having sex when I don't want to, and it hurts, but I'm his wife so I have to... I'm tired of being worried that I might say or do something that will upset him...

But this is turning out to be much more emotional than I thought it would be and I don't know how to find more strength.

[Maddieandtae]

Your emotional wellbeing is so much more important than the manipulation he has used to get you to stay. If your church and its members are encouraging you to stay, go to another church for worship, if your family and friends are harassing you to stay, put up boundaries and refuse to speak with them on this other than letting them know you are ending an abusive situation and value your life. Go seek support for abusive relationships. You need support from people who have been in your situation. There are people out there that do care and you need those people right now. If you feel you are right in ending the marriage than that is the most valuable opinion you need to listen to