justsounsure Posted November 10, 2015 Share Posted November 10, 2015 (edited) I just do. I want to talk to her so bad, even though it won't fix anything. I miss the sound of her voice. I miss the way she smells, and the way she looks at me, and the way she holds me. I feel like I'm starving myself every passing day that she is no longer in my life. But then again, it was like a meal that never fully satisfied me when it was around. (At least the last 6 months of the relationship). So .. it just sucks. I know that we shouldn't be together, but I feel absolutely miserable without her. What a wonderful dichotomy. Edited November 10, 2015 by justsounsure 1 Link to post Share on other sites
SixxChick Posted November 10, 2015 Share Posted November 10, 2015 I feel the same way. I miss him, but it was such a toxic relationship and it's so confusing why these feelings happen. I was with someone last night, just to make it a realization that I have to move on. But it was just like going through the motions. It was nothing like being with him. Life is full of dichotomies. I hope you find peace. I hope we all do. Link to post Share on other sites
xera Posted November 10, 2015 Share Posted November 10, 2015 I understand what youre going through. I had three solid years of living together with my ex. l havent been succesful with the NC YET. its really tough not speaking to her. But we can go through this. Please think for yourself and your benefit. Link to post Share on other sites
K2z Posted November 10, 2015 Share Posted November 10, 2015 The more NC, the more I miss her. I suspect that's a one way street. My relationship was not toxic, but I was lacking in certain stuff. Mainly a plan and (demonstrated) commitment. I'm gonna go to this Buddhist site in Korea where you get one wish per life. I'm gonna wish for her. Link to post Share on other sites
Author justsounsure Posted November 10, 2015 Author Share Posted November 10, 2015 I was with someone last night, just to make it a realization that I have to move on. But it was just like going through the motions. It was nothing like being with him. I understand this a lot. I haven't gotten to the point of being with anyone, but I've 'talked' to other people. When they flirt with me, I'm not even into it. It just doesn't compare. Link to post Share on other sites
Author justsounsure Posted November 10, 2015 Author Share Posted November 10, 2015 The more NC, the more I miss her. My gosh, me too. Which I haven't felt in a lot of other breakups. Usually after a few months I see the light and am all "What was I thinking?" Not here. I just love that girl to pieces. I know that she loves me too. In my situation, there was no love lost ... just 2 very different people with very different wants/needs who were never going to logically be able to make a life together. Hard pill to swallow. Link to post Share on other sites
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