Struggling with depression :(

[justanotherguy1]

I'm tired of being sad, tired of feeling miserable and depressed about my life. I don't want to feel this way and I do not want to carry this into 2016. I wanna do whatever i have to do to get over this.

 

I dont want to be the guy thats just complaining. I just dont know where to turn to. Everything is broken, I grew up in a poor broken home, broken family, abusive father who's been that way all my lif . And I have to face this everyday because he's a cruel disgusting man and we have nowhere to go, he doesn't want to change and does not want help. Courts no help because we live in his land even tho my mom sacrificed all her life and built the house.

 

Had my heart broken and ripped out, thought this girl was wonderful and special and I still think of her well but she's not the best. She put me aside and left me, never looked back or put in an effort. Just gave up on me. I don't see anything with her, I'd like to but she's just playing games and I struggle so much with her. I need to just forget about her. I made a thread before about her if anyone is interested in the story.

 

I would like to get councilling and some help but I can't afford it right now. I will sacrifice and save for it tho because its important. Other than that the only help of kind words I will get is from here.

 

I can't motivate or inspire myself to do things, I'm 22 and have achieved nothing in my lif . I started a course in school but I dropped out, it was too fi acially strenuous and idk where to start when it comes to figuring out my life educationally and professionally.

 

I'm in a job right now, its not the best of jobs, pays horrible to but I'm thankful for it. I really want to be happy, just have that simple happiness and be a man, take care of myself and my mother.

 

I am a weak man idk if its because I never had a dad or a strong role model or if its just because I've been through so much. Life's been difficult for me as long as I can remember and I don't want it to be that way.

 

I just want to be happy. Thank you guys for reading this. Have a great and safe Christmas.

[burnt]

Hi,

I'm so sorry for what you're feeling. I can relate to it, I can understand some parts of it.

 

I remember seeing an online forum somewhere where therapists volunteer for free to talk to people struggling with depression.

Can I suggest you google such 'free online therapist' or something similar for support.

 

Where I live, there are a few free depression support groups where people meet in person to discuss and share support for each other. You may want to look for something like it near where you live.

 

In terms of depression, of course the first solutions offered by many are medications and therapy. If you are struggling financially, there may be still option to get mental health care (under medicaid/ sliding scale etc depending on where you live--do search into it.)

 

But staying active is one of the most 'free' and effective ways to fight depression. It's not easy, but you have to force it sometimes just to keep going at time. Here are a few suggestions I can make that may help lower the pain of depression, from my own experience:

 

1. exercise--there is no question that exercise helps lifting your mode, even if it's by a small amount. You don't need to join and pay for a gym--pick up sports that cost nothing (running, hiking, cycling, indoor exercise--there are TONS of youtube videos on 'gym-free' workouts.)

 

Join free workout groups in your town (look in town newsletter, ask in your library or local town community centers).

 

2. Join clubs, experiment with new clubs. Just being in the company of people trying things out helps sometimes. Check out the website Meetup.com for local clubs and interest groups.

 

3. Volunteer if you are able to--for a cause you believe in and care about (animal shelter, homeless shelter, hospital etc.). There's something about being able to serve others in struggle always makes you feel a more worthy person. Being able to help others brings more purpose and meaning to life.

 

4. Most of all--do something to bring variety to your life--boredom and loneliness in a cruel way to enter and stay in the vicious cycle of depression--once you're in, it's easy to get only deeper. So, force yourself to just try to do things and stay active to get a break from this vicious cycle.

[justanotherguy1]

Thank you for that. Believe it or not alot has happened since i wrote this and its something horrible as well lol. But im thankful for life, and im happy that im at this stage in my life and that i have come so far after all i have been through.

 

Its time to treat myself and love myself, i dont need anyone

 

Thank you for replying. Have a great christmas and a happy new year.