Starting to find real solace after ending an up and down "relationship"

[Teknoe]

I wrote a thread about her that you can read if you're curious but the short of it is, I dated a girl for five straight days and we grew quickly attached as we were both on winter break and thus spent those 5 days almost 24/7. I know it's still an incredibly short amount of time but a bond did grow from that whirlwind week... especially since it had been a long while since I had someone on a "girlfriend" level.

 

I broke up with her because I couldn't ignore the copious amount of red flags anymore.

 

But then, a funny thing happened. Earlier this week, I started missing her. I even thought about checking up on her, but held back for two reasons:

 

1. She told me she's already jumped on the next train (that was fast)

2. I knew if I wanted to move on I had to go NC completely

 

I'm feeling a lot better now. I think because I went from one extreme (being with her 24/7) to the other extreme (being by myself most of the time) I went through a slight "post breakup" depression, despite me being the one who ended it. I spoke with some friends about it, to clear my feelings and have a healthy outlet. They said it's normal to feel the way I am, and that they also felt depressed in the past when they broke up with someone... both parties feel it for a while post breakup, whether you were the one dumped or dumping.

 

Had a nice quiet weekend to myself and realized I don't miss HER per se, because of all the red flags, but I do miss the companionship. But, that can come in the form of another person down the road who is better suited for me and vice versa. I feel like I'm in the clear now, because just one short week ago I felt myself missing her and romanticizing those short five days. It now feels like it happened two years ago... and as quickly as she came into my life I let her go.

 

Just sharing this. Not really asking any questions but feel free to share any feedback you may have.

 

Oh, and yes, I'll be reconnecting with old friends. Next weekend am having lunch with 3 guy friends I haven't seen in ages. I just went back to work full time, as well as the gym four nights a week, and pretty soon will be directing a musical for the spring... so I'm back to being a busy bee and not staying home wondering "what if" lol. Things are looking up. Got some goals I want to knock out (shed the holiday weight I put on, etc.)