Author minimariah Posted January 17, 2016 Author Share Posted January 17, 2016 I have dependent children and that is the biggest reason I fear dying. I fear dying before they are grown. Horrible thought. i have a small child, too -- but that's an entirely different fear for me. it's the kind of fear i learned how to live with, i learned how to accept it - and i'm not afraid of dying for ME... but for my children. THIS fear is different... it's a selfish kind of fear and i'm worried for ME. like, what happens to ME after death? or what happens if i die before i do all the things i want to do? realistically - i know how silly these thoughts are. we don't know what will happen, we can't predict our future and we should live in the moment. it is what it is. but right now... i feel like the irrational side of my brain is winnining. i'm usual composed, lol. seriously though. i'm trying to figure out what triggered this sudden fear. The way you describe it, I wonder if your issue isn't mortality but just plain ol' certainty. Maybe you're panicking because you're aware you can't control the future and your brain picks the most obvious image for a total lack of control: death. VERY good point. could be it. i absolutely do hate uncertainty. Anything particularly bad happen to you lately? also great point. the only bad thing that had happened recently was my breakup and an awkward situation following that breakup because we're at the same workplace - but i think i dealt with it since. me and my ex made peace so the tension isn't there anymore. you could say we're even some kind of friends now. i believe i'm over it. maybe this is some kind of late reaction to that event...? Link to post Share on other sites
jen1447 Posted January 17, 2016 Share Posted January 17, 2016 also great point. the only bad thing that had happened recently was my breakup and an awkward situation following that breakup because we're at the same workplace - but i think i dealt with it since. me and my ex made peace so the tension isn't there anymore. you could say we're even some kind of friends now. i believe i'm over it. maybe this is some kind of late reaction to that event...? It could be mimi. You know how ppl who get in car crashes and stuff like that might seem to feel ok right after the fact but then a few hours or even days later they really start to feel beat up? Could be the mind is similar. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author minimariah Posted January 17, 2016 Author Share Posted January 17, 2016 It could be mimi. You know how ppl who get in car crashes and stuff like that might seem to feel ok right after the fact but then a few hours or even days later they really start to feel beat up? Could be the mind is similar. you might be right... i'll definitely take it into consideration. thank you, my Jen and to everyone on this thread - you've all been super helpful. Link to post Share on other sites
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