Happy for sister, sad for me

[muffin]

My sister just called me tonight and told me she got engaged today. We've both been divorced for almost a decade and she dated one loser after another, and several months ago finally met a really great guy we all like a lot. I love my sister and I'm very glad for her, and happy that she found someone great. I think she deserves this happiness very much. I am also hoping she'll finally be blessed with a baby someday, as she's 38 and has wanted kids so much and never had any. At least I am a mom of a wonderful boy, and I have him in my life as a great joy and comfort.

 

I've also dated all the wrong people in the last several years but I seem to be outwaiting everyone, and not by choice. Sometimes I fear my 11 year-old son will be married before I meet anyone again. My last relationship ended very badly and I have lost all confidence, hope and trust in mankind. I'm 40 and just feel old, even though I look much younger than my age and I'm attractive. I've tried to learn from my mistakes and learn to be happy taking care of myself and my son and finding deeper meaning in life in other areas. It's all good, but deep down I am not content being alone. I have tried everything and given up both, but nothing brings the results I desire in my life. Sometimes I feel like I've been cursed with loneliness. I was divorced in '96 and in '05, I'm still alone, and not because I want to be.

[Lil Honey]

Muffin:

 

Never give up hope, just put it on the back burner. It seems that once a person stops "looking", another person enters their life.

 

You never know . . . your sister's new man may introduce to the next Mr. Muffin!

 

And if you feel that you go to the same places at the same times and have basically put yourself in a rut, you may want to change that up a bit. You just might bump into a wonderful guy simply by being at the right place at the right time.