Had to put my dog down...

[HarmonyInDisonance]

There wasn't time to go to the vet and she was suffering immensely so I had to do it myself. She got hit by a car early yesterday morning. She was mangled but still alive. There was no amount of surgery or anything that would have been able to repair the damage.

 

I know I did the right thing, but it felt wrong. I had to kill someone I love.

 

I feel stupid for feeling this way over a pet, but it is really bothering me. She trusted me and loved me, but even then her instincts told her what was happening. I feel like I had to betray her in her final moments, while she was already suffering so...

 

But it had to be done, a trip to the vet would've only meant more suffering, every second she had to stay here was agony. But still.

 

I had to pick up a gun, something I never wanted to do again, and turn it on a family member of all things. This has fallen to me before and is why I do not get attached to animals, but Bailey was different. It seemed like she was my first dog reincarnated. They had the same habits and weird mannerisms, if that makes any sense.

 

In case anyone is wondering there really was no other way, no time, no alternative.

 

I know some people will think this is stupid, but I feel terrible, like I betrayed her.

 

Have any of you guys ever had to do this? I mean I have had to put down some animals in my time, I live in the country after all and at times the vet just means more pain for the animal. This is the first time I have had to put down my own friend though.

 

How do you get that image out of your head? How do you stop seeing it?

 

I'm gonna have to try to distract myself. Thank God I have to chance to just vegetate right now.

[MidwestUSA]

I've never had to do it that way, and I can't imagine.

 

You did what you had to do. I agree, there was no point in extending the suffering.

 

You didn't betray her, you kept the promise that you would love and do anything for her, including not allowing her to suffer. Believe me, when they are looking at you with those eyes, they are begging you for help, in whatever form it takes.

 

I did once try to OD one of mine on a Sunday, hoping he would just go quietly, so we wouldn't have to wait for the appointment the next day. It didn't work.

 

Take care of yourself, you did nothing wrong. Under the same circumstances, I would have done it too.

 

Many hugs.

[d0nnivain]

So very sorry. I couldn't imagine doing that.

 

 

Check out a site called www.petloss.com They helped me so much.

[BlueIris]

I’m so sorry.

You did do the right thing.

[amaysngrace]

I put down my friends' dog Lily because she asked me to.

 

It's better than watching them suffer.

Edited May 24, 2016 by a LoveShack.org Moderator

[seamos]

I'm sorry you had to go thru that.

 

It's got make it even harder being unexpected.

 

I know what you're going thru in losing something so close to you.

 

When I had to have my Wolfhound put down (his hips went out due to old age) it was the hardest thing I've ever gone thru. In the previous 3 yrs. 3 of my closest friends had died but the death of my dog was so much harder.

 

When that's the only choice there is, it's better for it to be done mercifully by someone who loves the animal than left in the hands of someone who doesn't care.

 

I wish you the best getting thru this.

[basil67]

(((hugs))) to you - it hurts so much to loose a beloved animal. You did the right thing.

[RedPurpleOrange]

Oh, that's horrible. I feel really, really sad for you. It was a brave thing you did, an awful awful thing to have to do, but the right thing.

 

 

When you've got a wonderful dog and have to make that decision to put it out of its misery...it is TRULY heartbreaking.

 

 

It's only three years since my Jack Russell cross mongrel ("Carlos") had to be put down. Got to the point where he couldn't walk properly and was laying around in brave-faced agony. Couldn't bear to see him like that and took him down to the vets and he got the injection, died in my arms and I broke down in floods of tears at losing the little man.

 

 

Feel right pathetic being a big, grown-ass man but even typing this out has made me well up! Hurts just thinking about it, I only wish I could have him again from being a pup, a beautiful, funny little dog he was. Will always miss him.

 

 

(All I need now is some violins, lol).

[HarmonyInDisonance]

Thank you all for your kind words. I know I did the right thing, but it is hard to get the image out of my mind. Every time I close my eyes I see her last few seconds. I will not get into details, but I only own 2 weapons, a 16 gauge long barrel shotgun and a .38 revolver.

 

It was horrible. I used the 38 but it did not go well. I have experience with weapons and I have done this before. I was afraid to fire from a distance for a few reasons. 1 it might tumble or slow down enough to cause a smash in, which would be bad. 2 I might miss and not finish it in 1 shot.

 

So I got close. Point blank pretty much. The exit wound was bad. The mess was hard to clean.

 

The whole thing was just hard.

 

This happened just a day after my son got hurt very badly. He got a puncture wound that almost killed him. So in just a couple days I have had to see my four year old's skull and blood everywhere and then this.

 

I need to get this outa my head.

 

 

She never goes in the road and the speed limit is 35 anyway. Plus there is a stop sign right across the street. Someone had to be driving like a crazy person or they swerved to hit her. I really hate it but I have seen some of these young men drive off the road to run over a rabbit for fun so I dunno.

 

To make things a little worse is the fact that our only neighbors are constantly sneaking up at night and stealing anything they can. It stopped when bailey got big enough to go after them. They will be back now though as soon as they realize she is gone.

 

Well I appreciate it again guys, this community has helped me through some serious stuff, but I don't know what to do about the images.

 

If you ever have to do this get a 22 for Gods sake and get close. My weapons were meant for people and they hit hard, too hard for a clean end.

 

Pray for me, the bloody image stirs up others from the past. I have seen a lot of blood and I have seen a lot of death.

 

I was a criminal in my youth saw a lot of gruesome ****. Then I grew outta that crap and joined the cav. Saw more blood, saw more death. Seeing it again brings some of the old stuff back... I'll say this though I can drop a hostile and feel just about nothing, but this is killing me inside.

[HarmonyInDisonance]

Oh, that's horrible. I feel really, really sad for you. It was a brave thing you did, an awful awful thing to have to do, but the right thing.

 

 

When you've got a wonderful dog and have to make that decision to put it out of its misery...it is TRULY heartbreaking.

 

 

It's only three years since my Jack Russell cross mongrel ("Carlos") had to be put down. Got to the point where he couldn't walk properly and was laying around in brave-faced agony. Couldn't bear to see him like that and took him down to the vets and he got the injection, died in my arms and I broke down in floods of tears at losing the little man.

 

 

Feel right pathetic being a big, grown-ass man but even typing this out has made me well up! Hurts just thinking about it, I only wish I could have him again from being a pup, a beautiful, funny little dog he was. Will always miss him.

 

 

(All I need now is some violins, lol).

 

Don't feel to bad about it sir. I am a trained killer and losing my dog is tearing me up. Having it go down the way it did was just some sort of sick icing on the cake.

 

So break me out a pair too huh and while your at it a good bottle of single malt scotch!

[amaysngrace]

Hopefully you'll replace the bad images with happy ones but it's going to take some time since these recent images are fresh in your memory.

 

I hope your son is doing okay now.