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Why i didn't believe you guys...why i was so stupid. This hurts 20x more than the cheating.

 

She is now "happily" dating someone else while i was left alone. Boom. Just like that. She doesn't even share a tear. I slept 3 hours last night. 3 HOURS. And the dreams i saw were all nightmares about her and her kids.

 

I woke up few times thought all this was just a bad dream then i remembered it was true. Too tired to go running, too tired to go to gym... :/

 

Now she had it all, she had me as her sex buddy and companion while she was searching for a new guy. "well didn't i tell you that you were free to do whatever you wanted? We were not together.". Yes. But i am not emotionless bitch like you are.

I cannot have FWB thing going on with anyone. Sex means more to me. Kissing and hugging means more.

 

It's not her fault, it's your fault. She never promised you anything -- you just willfully ignored everything except what you want to see. Don't be mad at her, be mad at yourself for being so willfully delusional.

 

Until you start taking responsibility for your own foolishness you're going to continue to be in these type of situations -- be it with this woman or another woman. You didn't learn s--t from the first breakup you were going on and on about and I don't think you're going to learn s--t from this one, but if you have a chance to prove that wrong.

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I visited her...got my shirt back, talked with her and bridges are burned.

 

She blamed herself a bit for leading me on and hurting me and not telling me sooner she was seeing someone else. so she knew she was doing wrong. She had met this new guy before the amusement park trip, but she wanted me to join because i am fun.

 

She said that all this time she wanted to see me too because it's fun and nice being with me.

 

But i burned bridges quite badly...there is never going back and i wouldn't even take her anymore. I had enough. She was again bangin some dudes without protection god knows how many different ones. Well, none of my business anymore.

 

"I just get so depressed so i did stupid things..." Always the same explanation.

 

She is mad at me for saying things to her. I am mad at her for stuff that happened.

 

WE hugged. She cried, i finally left.

 

I really need to talk with this nurse again on friday. I did something very, very stupid...

I just cannot control my anger at all. AT ALL. It has actually gotten worse. I have never behaved like this in my life.

 

Then she said the same **** again... "you can't cook! You never cleaned my apartment! You never paid for restaurant bills! I want easier life!"

 

So she can have that easier life. I know i want EASIER life. And it does not include her.

Yes we had fun together, that is true. But honestly, she is no relationship material at all.

 

"oops, maybe i shouldn't stopped taking all the meds at once". She is completely reckless.

 

And i was foolish for letting this go on for so long...

 

All i can do now is never contact her again. What bothers me the most is now she remembers me as a raging lunatic...nWhy couldn't i just let it be?! "It's over." "OK.".

 

No fuss, no hurt feelings. But no...i have to open my stupid mouth. I have to say evil things to her.

 

But to be honest...i lost nothing. She was no friend material anyway. "You didn't clean the apartment. You didn't cook". What the hell. If i'm only a friend i don't cook or clean!

 

So she wanted a male servant: Easier life.

 

Then about my job "you are such a loser. Anyone could get a job just like that.". BS. It's not easy these days! I remember when i was younger i just basically went to a job. Now no matter how much i've tried i just cannot get myself a job... I don't enjoy being unemployed.

 

All i can do now is heal. HEAL and heal. Back to drawing table....

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such a stupid way to end things...

 

I am so depressed and i know the loneliness will hit me in the face soon. The hole in my chest will grow and i feel empty inside. I crave her like a drug. Ever since i met her i've been crazy about her. And crazy fits pretty well.

 

I am ashamed of my own behaviour. I guess i just went over the limit... I have no excuses. My anger controls me instead me controlling it. I become another person when i become angry. I don't even think. I just act. Desperation mixed with rage and anger. That is not good combination. I did some stupid ****...some very stupid ****....

 

I really did like her. Her good side. Her good side was perfect. She admitted herself that the trip to amusement park was best day of her summer too.

 

The only reason we were not in RS was because i cant cook or clean. But it's bull**** because i can cook and i can clean. Just come look at my apartment, clean and tidy. And for now i have not died because of malnutrition. I am not amazing cook, but i can do some basic stuff. I've never enjoyed cooking that much anyway...

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OP - You need to realize that you were using her, too.

 

She used you for companionship and sex, and you used her to boost your self-esteem and fill this "hole". You fed off each other's weaknesses and expected the other to patch up the broken pieces inside yourselves. This was the inevitable outcome. (This has zero to do with cooking ability)

 

She clearly brings out the worst in you. But this isn't her fault, not entirely. You need to start being accountable for you. You saw how awfully she treated you but refused to believe it.

 

It's for the best that bridges are burned. You will never have a healthy, normal relationship with her. The damage you are doing to yourself is soon going to be irreparable.

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Just caught up on the thread. Protect, after everything that happened with the amusement park incident, why did you have to go visit her again?

 

I know you said you had a shirt she kept but honestly, was that shirt really necessary? From personal experience, when my ex did me wrong, there were a few of my personal belongings that were still with her that I never got back. Some of which were worth a few hundred dollars which I'm sure she probably still has and chances are whoever she is with now is using them with no idea as to where it came from.

 

Now the reason I never reclaimed the items was basically because even though some of those items were nice, my sanity and myself needing to heal was far more valuable and important. The items, I eventually replaced myself with even BETTER items.

 

My point is, I get that you are full hatred for what she has done to you now, but visiting her to talk about what you already know and get that shirt back really was not necessary. As I said before in my previous reply, if by any chance she does love you and by some miracle decides to change herself for the better and come back(right now, it looks HIGHLY unlikely), then you need to be gone out of her life and you need to focus on yourself. By then, if she ever decides to want to speak to you, then you will be long gone, happy with someone better and will not need to pay attention to her by any means.

 

If by any chance, you do have any other personal items missing that she has...just let them go. The items are replaceable, your mind, body, and health are not. Good luck in your healing, and by any means necessary do NOT contact her nor reply to anything she says or does...you will get nothing but negativity and heartbreak. Believe all of us, we're here for you.

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I just had to get that shirt back. It's the only good shirt i have and just bought it few weeks ago. But i got it back so no problem.

 

Only thing i can do is heal now. There is nothing left to do. I just feel so sad WHY she had to act that way. WHY???

 

I mean really. 32 year old mother of 2 kids, getting wasted for 3 days straight in a festival...

 

Why she didn't mention the other guy earlier? What i hate is LIES. I trust people (foolishly). I trusted her when she said she is not seeing anyone else. And now she tells me!

 

Her explanation "I did not want to lose you...because it's so much fun spending time with you". Then why on earth is she dating someone else if i am so much fun and sex is good?

 

It makes no sense. SO i need to stop trying to make sense of it.

She is a whackjob, i have issues, we are done. Start healing.

 

This is pretty hard. I feel the constant urge to contact her...as i have used to call her etc.

 

I am just so mad at her. I hate nothing more than lies. Little white lies are ok but what she did...it's just unacceptable. She did not tell her new guy about me either. So she lied to the new guy as well.

 

I asked her about all the stuff she said to me "Well...at that moment i meant it, but you never know what is going to happen the next day" WHAT the **** :D

 

So she just says stuff but never stands behind her words. She just says stuff that suits the current situation and next day she says it's not true anymore.

 

Just like she did with the "i love you". She said it, i thought it was real, but she just said it because it felt right at THAT moment. The very next day she did not love me anymore since situation had changed.

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Why she didn't mention the other guy earlier? What i hate is LIES. I trust people (foolishly). I trusted her when she said she is not seeing anyone else. And now she tells me!

 

Her explanation "I did not want to lose you...because it's so much fun spending time with you". Then why on earth is she dating someone else if i am so much fun and sex is good?

 

It makes no sense. SO i need to stop trying to make sense of it.

 

Protec, it makes all the sense in the world: you're a crutch for her, nothing else, and you're as guilty as her or even more for having accepted that role. It was very clear a long, long time ago that you were being used and mistreated by that woman and, in spite of it, there you are, still with "urges to call her". It's not the first time she's lied to you or treated you like garbage. What do you need to tell her now? How bad she made you feel? She's done it 1,000 times and she's never cared and you have a lot to answer for on that.

 

You had a chance to end it yourself and leave that "relationship" with a modicum of dignity, but instead you let her give you the final blow. Don't go looking for more suffering, man. Really. Stand in front of the mirror and ask yourself out loud whether there's some self-esteem left in you and cling to it.

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I will not contact her! She is very mad at me too since i said some evil things to her...

I just hate that she lied to me. But stupid of me actually thinking she would tell me when she met someone new...of course she didn't tell me. She could keep using me and having fun while dating the other guy and seeing if he is good enough to keep.

 

I don't have to tell her anything...i just miss talking with her. I still wonder how she can be 2 completely different persons in one package.

 

And i know she would not even answer me. And really have nothing to say. She said it's over, bridges are now burned both sides (she is mad what i said to her...funny. Words are just words).

 

And about the cheating. I told her "well, now you know how i felt".

Her defense "but at least you did not see me do it like i did now."

 

She has known the guy for what...few weeks?

 

So her pain was greater than mine....of course it was. So she thought her cheating was nothing...

 

So confusing. Just so confusing how she can be 2 completely different persons in one.

 

Now i need a good movie to watch...

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you really need to change the way you are thinking, you will go a running as soon as she texts you in 4 days unless you contact her again..which you can't seem to stop doing.. that is what you need to change about your thinking..

 

Write her totally off and never speak to her again.. why should you ? the woman has done nothing but cause a roller coaster of bad emotions in your life..

 

Time to move on.....

 

Tell yourself you are nice and a good looking guy who deserves better and take yourself seriously..

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you really need to change the way you are thinking, you will go a running as soon as she texts you in 4 days unless you contact her again..which you can't seem to stop doing.. that is what you need to change about your thinking..

 

Write her totally off and never speak to her again.. why should you ? the woman has done nothing but cause a roller coaster of bad emotions in your life..

 

Time to move on.....

 

Tell yourself you are nice and a good looking guy who deserves better and take yourself seriously..

 

I will not text her. She will not contact me. . I said so evil things to her, she will never forgive me...

 

I am also a horrible man. I did some things she did not deserve...i was just so angry.

 

Yes. I am angry. Even my psychologic nurse said it's perfectly normal to get angry for things what she has done to me. I still should't pushed her though...

 

I just hate it ended like this and i blame myself for not ending it nicely.

I just should have stopped talking with her right away but no....

 

I even ****ed up the breakup. Now she will hate me always.

I never wanted her to hate me....

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I will not text her. She will not contact me. . I said so evil things to her, she will never forgive me...

 

I am also a horrible man. I did some things she did not deserve...i was just so angry.

 

Yes. I am angry. Even my psychologic nurse said it's perfectly normal to get angry for things what she has done to me. I still should't pushed her though...

 

I just hate it ended like this and i blame myself for not ending it nicely.

I just should have stopped talking with her right away but no....

 

I even ****ed up the breakup. Now she will hate me always.

I never wanted her to hate me....

 

Protec, would you please stop with the self-pity stance?

 

My God, nut-up and see things for what they are. Who gives a ratt's @ss how she feels about the things you said? She has absolutely no control over her emotions so why are you seeing them as valid?

 

In fact, think of it this way:

 

If every ounce of her "love" for you was bullcrap, why would her "hate" of you be any different?

 

She does not have the ability to hate or love anything regarding you. She's void of feeling anything further than the tip of her nose.

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If you aren't blocking her number then, yes, she will contact you again. And you don't have the strength to avoid her. So block her number, otherwise everything you're saying is just more of what you've been doing in this 400-reply thread: Flapping your gums and taking no actual action.

 

You claimed many times before that a woman hating you is the only way you can move on from them. Well, here's your chance to put your money where your mouth is.

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I will not text her. She will not contact me. . I said so evil things to her, she will never forgive me...

 

I am also a horrible man. I did some things she did not deserve...i was just so angry.

 

Yes. I am angry. Even my psychologic nurse said it's perfectly normal to get angry for things what she has done to me. I still should't pushed her though...

 

I just hate it ended like this and i blame myself for not ending it nicely.

I just should have stopped talking with her right away but no....

 

I even ****ed up the breakup. Now she will hate me always.

I never wanted her to hate me....

 

 

Dear Protec don't be so harsh on yourself. You have feelings of sadness and anger over a lost love, that's in human nature. I'm sure if it ended nicely you would not let her go that easily, you were idealizing her and it seems like you were not willing to give up on her voluntarily.

 

In this whole situation there is a hidden lesson to teach you something that can improve your life. One thing is for sure, you have a great ability to 'fight' for the things you want; that is an excellent habit if you can direct that to meaningful goals. As you are in the middle of this 'break up' there will be more though moments. Instead of trying to understand your ex, or repairing things if she contacts you again or blaming yourself, please try to focus your willpower to change your reaction to the things that trigger you (make a list) to feel bad or wanting to contact her again. In time you will grow more stronger and be more in control of your emotions.

 

Darling im sure you can do it and it starts all with your choice not to settle yourself for such poor treatment. You deserve better, it seems like your are a nice guy.

 

If you have any free time maybe you want to read more about powerful mental tools to change your thinking and learn how to be more resilient.

 

Big hug

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RIght now the image in my head is some guy bangin her...i feel so awful. I just want the image out of my head....i feel so damn awful.

 

I will never, EVER. Let her near me again.

 

I think i showed enough threat to her when i broke into her apartment by breaking the security chain from her door. Yes, i cannot control my anger. I know. I was just so pissed at her when she opened the door and throwed my stuff on her backyard i snapped. I pulled the door and broke the security chain.

 

Yes, immature and stupid. Unfortunately the only way i can tell someone to stay out from my face. I am seriously pissed at her.

 

I did wrong and i feel bad about it....I am serious. She went WAY over the line this time.

 

I got nothing to do with her any more.

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Nah, you will be back within a week. You love the drama, conditioned to it. You don't know how else to live.

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RIght now the image in my head is some guy bangin her...i feel so awful. I just want the image out of my head....i feel so damn awful.

 

I will never, EVER. Let her near me again.

 

I think i showed enough threat to her when i broke into her apartment by breaking the security chain from her door. Yes, i cannot control my anger. I know. I was just so pissed at her when she opened the door and throwed my stuff on her backyard i snapped. I pulled the door and broke the security chain.

 

Yes, immature and stupid. Unfortunately the only way i can tell someone to stay out from my face. I am seriously pissed at her.

 

I did wrong and i feel bad about it....I am serious. She went WAY over the line this time.

 

I got nothing to do with her any more.

 

Get help. She doesn't sound like the unstable one in this post.

 

She went "way over the line this time" because she cheated? Dude, the freaking title of this thread refers to her cheating and she did that in MAY.

 

Stop finding ways to sink to new lows, otherwise a restraining order and possible legal action are both likely in your future.

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Get help. She doesn't sound like the unstable one in this post.

 

She went "way over the line this time" because she cheated? Dude, the freaking title of this thread refers to her cheating and she did that in MAY.

 

Stop finding ways to sink to new lows, otherwise a restraining order and possible legal action are both likely in your future.

 

Yes, actually, I was coming around to making a similar post.

 

The OP has, for a few pages now, started to come across to me as dangerously obsessive about this girl. The penny dropped for me, with the stubborn refusal to accept her bipolar - pretty much all the comments of dissatisfaction with this woman are centred around her disorder but he is blindly unwilling to accept the fact, in fact, he doesn't even address it, just goes on to rant and rave about outcomes and behaviour that are clearly and obviously linked to her issue.

 

The problem here as a few have said now is clearly not her, its him. He is obsessive and won't accept the reality of a situation, nor has any concern for who she is or how she works ... this type of thing can end up with the girl chained to the wall in a basement ... while he 'looks after her' ... seriously, its a sign of illness in the OP's own mind.

 

Protec, get professional help man, seriously. The road you are on now cannot end well.

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Nah, you will be back within a week. You love the drama, conditioned to it. You don't know how else to live.

 

I miss her yes. But i will not go back to her. This was it. She dated new guy behind my back and not telling me. That's it for me. She crossed the line.

Ill or not, i deserve better.

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Yes, actually, I was coming around to making a similar post.

 

The OP has, for a few pages now, started to come across to me as dangerously obsessive about this girl. The penny dropped for me, with the stubborn refusal to accept her bipolar - pretty much all the comments of dissatisfaction with this woman are centred around her disorder but he is blindly unwilling to accept the fact, in fact, he doesn't even address it, just goes on to rant and rave about outcomes and behaviour that are clearly and obviously linked to her issue.

 

The problem here as a few have said now is clearly not her, its him. He is obsessive and won't accept the reality of a situation, nor has any concern for who she is or how she works ... this type of thing can end up with the girl chained to the wall in a basement ... while he 'looks after her' ... seriously, its a sign of illness in the OP's own mind.

 

Protec, get professional help man, seriously. The road you are on now cannot end well.

 

I will not chain her up. WTF dude.

 

How can i help person who is bipolar and does not take her medicines? I cannot. It's her choice, not mine. I am not an adult babysitter. I tried to talk about it with her, but all she says "doctors are *******s, they know nothing. These meds are not working".

 

I tried to reason that she could end up losing her kids if she continues that way. Nothing. She made up her mind and not take the meds.

 

Stop making me the bad guy here.

 

Calling me names and telling i am mentally ill is not really helping. I tried my best to understand her condition and actions. But she is still responsible of her behaviour, ill or not.

And she didn't show one thing that she is trying to get better. She stopped her medication, every weekend without kids she partied and got drunk. etc.

 

I have nothing to do with her anymore. I am sad it ended this way but there is no going back anymore. I reached my limit.

 

Yes, i was stupid i should've been strong enough to end this back then.

 

And yes, i have anger management issues and i am not proud of it. And yes, i will see my psych. nurse again in friday so i am getting help.

 

And she asked me to spend time with her last week. She called me, asked me to come there and spend overnight and join them to amusement park trip.

 

All of you probably can see trough peoples lies, i cannot. When someone cuddles me on the sofa, tells me how nice man i am etc. i believe them. otherwise i could never trust anyone.

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She did and said plenty long ago that showed she shouldn't be trusted. Your obsession with her validation of you blinded you to this even though people having been telling you for MONTHS to bail out on this woman for that very reason.

 

And quite frankly, you're lucky you aren't in jail right now. What you did would be considered breaking and entering in these parts. Take some solace in the fact that she didn't call the police like most people would've.

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I thought things were getting better between us. Suddenly receiving a phonecall from her to join play frisbee golf with her and kids and telling me to take my clothes with me if i happen to stay overnight.

 

It didn't feel like we were friends. Friends don't cuddle on sofa in front of kids. Friends don't kiss in front of kids.

 

She admitted herself that she mislead me. "i should've not done that...but it felt so good."

 

If it felt good to her, you can just imagine it felt good to me to. We were like a couple again, for 3 days we spend days and nights together. Doing stuff we did while we started dating. I thought things between us started to look better. We had fun.

 

I had no idea that at the same time she was dating someone else. How could i? I was there, playing with her kids, sleeping overnight. No way person who dates someone spends so much time with her ex?

 

We had so much fun in the amusement park. You should've seen us. We were like a family.

 

I honestly thought things were getting better between is, it sure looked that way. She kissing me, telling how nice it is to be with me and holding hands.

 

And after all that, just 2 days later she tells me she has been dating someone else too and banging some guys at rock festival while being very drunk.

 

So yes, i got angry. I know we were not together, but it all seemed she just wanted to use that as an excuse to date others etc.

 

But there is no way you take your FWB / Friend to an amusement park and kiss in public in front of HER kids. I did not think we were just friends anymore. As it didn't feel like it, and it did not look like it.

 

The 3 days i spent with her last week definitely did not feel that we are just friends or FWB.

 

Once when i was younger i spent a day with my other ex in amusement park.

Did we hold hands? No. Did we kiss each other? No. Did we hug? No.

We were there just as friends and i did not get any other image.

 

That's why this all came to a shock to me. I never could've imagined she was dating someone else.

 

-She didn't tell me she is dating new guy, and didn't tell about me to her new guy. As she wanted to have her cake and eat it too, she lied to both of us.

 

She didn't tell me about her new guy because she didn't want to lose me (she told me this yesterday), and probaly didn't want to tell about me to her new guy because she probably wanted to continue seeing him, and as far as i know, not many guys like that their woman is still banging their ex.

 

To me she was a normal person. I know she had bipolar, but bipolarity is not an excuse to cheat, lie, abuse other people.

 

As i explained, to me her actions and words were real. As they should be. The good ones and the bad ones. I know bipolar can severily alter your judgment. But i cannot think in the way bipolar person does. There is no way to truly understand it.

 

I supported her after she cheated on me. I felt sorry for her. But still she has the power to stay out of situations like that. She is still in control of her behaviour.

 

I told her several times "if you know you go haywire after drinking and being in a party: stay out of such situations". That is really the only way.

 

She can always choose to stay home. She knows exactly what alcohol and partying does to her. But it's her choice. She knew she will hurt me, yet she chose to lie to me.

 

I didn't know about the other guy.

 

But time to go outside. Sun is shining. Time to concentrate on myself again...

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She did and said plenty long ago that showed she shouldn't be trusted. Your obsession with her validation of you blinded you to this even though people having been telling you for MONTHS to bail out on this woman for that very reason.

 

And quite frankly, you're lucky you aren't in jail right now. What you did would be considered breaking and entering in these parts. Take some solace in the fact that she didn't call the police like most people would've.

 

I know. I am not proud what i did. I have no excuse to it. I was so angry i was not thinking straight.

 

All i can do now is to concentrate on myself and improve myself. I will tell about the incident to the nurse when i see her at friday.

 

It's time for me too to take responsibilities for my actions. I have never behaved this way in my life.

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How can i help person who is bipolar and does not take her medicines? I cannot.

 

You cannot ... full stop. End there. Medicine or not, you cant help.

 

 

It's her choice, not mine. I am not an adult babysitter. I tried to talk about it with her, but all she says "doctors are *******s, they know nothing. These meds are not working".

 

But you've read up on the condition yes? This is classic bipolar. The meds arent working, the meds make me feel funny, the docs don't know anything ... blah blah blah. Its absolutely right down the middle classic and unsurprising bipolar behaviour.

 

 

I tried to reason that she could end up losing her kids if she continues that way. Nothing. She made up her mind and not take the meds.

 

Stop making me the bad guy here.

 

Well mate you're not the 'good' guy. You cant reason with her on these issues. You sound like someone trying to get someone else to stop smoking or something.

 

 

 

Calling me names and telling i am mentally ill is not really helping. I tried my best to understand her condition and actions.

 

You really haven't. Look at how you are responding, angrily now, hurt before, mystified before that. No mystery here.

 

 

But she is still responsible of her behaviour, ill or not.

 

Yes, this is true, to a large extent and in most places. As adults we must answer for those things we do or don't do. Legally speaking, with her condition, presumably diagnosed, there might be some debate over responsibility, but, sure, ultimately I know what you mean and the real world is indeed like this.

 

My wifes sister would just 'disappear' for long periods of time, then suddenly call, from a thousand miles away because she was starving and living on a park bench somewhere ... as a curvaceous young lady with a predisposition to promiscuity I cant tell you the danger she constantly placed herself in.

 

But what can anyone do? Nothing. If she broke the law, the police would intervene, but this rarely happened. If she checked herself into hospital then they would take her, but when she wanted she'd check herself out and no-one could stop her ... she was an adult and you can't lock people up just because they have strange mental processes ... so long as she wasn't a clear and present danger to herself or others ... well.....

 

 

And she didn't show one thing that she is trying to get better. She stopped her medication, every weekend without kids she partied and got drunk. etc.

 

Because she's never going to get better and it can and usually is a part of the condition to have thoughts of persecution or at the least paranoia.

 

I don't know what point you are trying to make by constantly rehashing the things 'she does' which are clearly and obviously, for the most part, directly correlated with her condition ... as if you are surprised or disgusted by these things. You might as well get angry at me for having brown hair.

 

 

All of you probably can see trough peoples lies, i cannot. When someone cuddles me on the sofa, tells me how nice man i am etc. i believe them. otherwise i could never trust anyone.

 

For gods sakes! Seriously?

 

She's not lying to you - at the time she makes these moves and these comments she's being completely honest ...at...that...moment...

 

and in the bat of an eye, she'll hate you for something you say, or trying to control her, or mentioning the meds she's not taking, or refusing to have sex with her if she's in the mood, or ... whatever.... and two hours after the shrill anger, she'll kiss your hand and tell you what a great man you are.

 

Bipolar is a condition, its not an addiction or some sort of self abuse that you can reason and logic a sufferer through. With meds and constant counseling a lot of sufferers can find a way to pull together a good life, it can be done and is done, but every day is a struggle and nothing should ever be taken for granted.

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Serious question: what is going to come out of this thread?

 

Is it only me who is seeing an unhealthy codependent entanglement between the OP and regular posters? The thread seems to go around in circles and just feeds some kind of need in the OP.

 

I know everyone wants to help but I'm wondering whether it's the opposite.

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I've been reading this thread and trying to refrain from posting in it. But I must say a couple of things.

 

 

If this woman is indeed diagnosed with bi-polar than everything you have experienced with her is very much what those who deal with a person with bi-polar experience. The confusing messages, the mood swings, the impulsivity and reckless behaviour, the very loving side and then the axe coming down for the sudden switch. They are very much Jekyl and Hyde and they will confuse you and reel you in and slam the door in your face when you think you can trust them. Loved ones of those with bi-polar are often abused.

 

I have a lot of experience dealing with a loved one who is bi-polar. Unless she is on lithium she will continue to be everything that is described in this thread. All the excuses that she makes for the meds and docs not working feel real to her because chances are the meds she is on are actually NOT working (unless it is lithium) so they get discouraged and drop the plan.

 

You are in for a lifetime of confusion and pain if you stick around. I can't add anything more than what has already been said.

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