Waiting in response for second chance email but found out something devestating

[Sunkissedpatio]

Hi Peony - DO NOT CONTACT him!! Omg please don't do it. What could you possibly say to him? you are broken up now he can claim that he owes you no explanation now, and it will only make you feel worse.

 

You know what you know now and that is something you need to figure out in your head unfortunately

 

This is me by the way, I'll keep my pic up for a few minutes until you post then I will take it down. Nice to meet you my friend

[peonyrose]

Oh wow you are beautiful sunkissed..oh yes we would have fun together like you said when I put my photo up. Haha

 

Let's meet let's go on a holiday, let's say screw you to them....

[Sunkissedpatio]

thanks Peony! yes we would!!

 

Ya let's totally screw these morons and get on with it!

 

I hope you are feeling better. It really sucks to see what you saw. I feel for you.

[peonyrose]

So glad I've had you mainly but the other girls too, to talk to on this, its saved me.

 

Still not sure how I'll be okay with today and what I saw, found myself looking at his new picture about 5 times tonight. He actually is a stranger to me. I kept looking for some sort of resemblance, but nothing. The beard, the hair dying, the cheeky smile. Bares no resemblance to the man I loved. Makes me feel sivck inside. Funny I would have loved all these changes when we were together. He knew it too. But here he is doing it for his latest girl, he meets. Ugh, realm ugh..

 

Maybe come to Ireland on your engagement ring, how cool would that be.

[Sunkissedpatio]

I hear you I feel the exact same way. Besides my close ones I have really appreciated having you here, and Trinity and all the others who gave some great advise of course.

 

That is the biggest rub, when you see them doing things that you had asked for and they wouldn't for you. It sounds like yours has tried to "hypi-fy" himself by growing a beard and dying his hair to look trendier and younger. That is the look of millennials on my side of the world (not dying hair but hipster haircuts with beards etc.)

 

I used to want to go out more during the week, we had become so routine during the week and I would always text him hey let's go out tonight for dinner rather than stay in. And I'd get a flaky sure....Then we'd get home and he would claim to be too tired to go out and me being the considerate idiot that I am "well let's stay in and order in since you feel worn out and had a long day"

 

Now he's out every single night with the wilderbeast. Pfft....

 

Do you know that Thursday when I ran into them at work he went to a wireless dealer across from my work, (that's why he was there) this is only a dealer (I know who his internet provider is because I was still with him when it was installed in his new place) the point is there are a million of the actual stores all over the city and the wanker went to a second hand dealer across from my work which is not close to anything major. Then he took her across town on the other side of town to our favourite restaurant for dinner and before that they went shopping to my fave little clothing shop the same street. It's like he is trying to re-program the life we had with the wilderbeast.

 

Ughh he is so pathetic! You'd think you'd want to make new memories not retrace steps of our life...

Edited July 5, 2016 by Sunkissedpatio