Should I call him again or is he just not interested?

[sunshine2627]

Im sorry that Scott didn't call you back. Guys are bad about that anyway. One of my goods friends does that too me all the time. It's frustrating. Maybe you could give him a call tomorrow night or something? See what he has going on this weekend. You have more patience than me if you can wait it out.

 

Well Mike (guy from Match) e-mailed me at work this afternoon. Said that he has to go out of town early tomorrow morning and said it would probably be best if he stayed home so he could get a few things done. He said I am more than welcome to come over. I e-mailed him back and said that maybe we can do something another night. That way he can get whatever he needs to get done. Plus, I am still trying to get over a cold. I told him to call me cause I was getting ready to leave work. He did! I realized how much I missed talking to him. He just has one of those voices. I don't think I would be all that nervous if I just went over to his house. I wouldn't feel pressured. Yeah it takes me about 5 years as well to make as much as he does in a year. I don't even make $35K a year. So I am a little intimidated there and plus he said he likes slender and athletic and toned. Well, Im not exactly slender and Im not really don't think Im athletic/toned, just average. That intimidates me as well. We'll see how it goes maybe Friday when he gets back into town. We talked about maybe doing something then.

[justagirl1121]

Oh, well good luck with Mike!!! Hopefully, he's a good guy and the money stuff won't be a problem at all. It's one thing to be successful and make money, just don't flaunt it, so hopefully, he won't. I don't think body type should necessarily be a huge issue. I think that we really criticize ourselves much more than the guys are. I'm average thin...i'm not toned either...i got some flab...but when Scott and i were "hanging" out, he made some comment like "did anyone ever tell you you had a great body" now that was just weird, because well i haven't but i dont think im necessarily fit but not like horrible either, but that coming from him, i was like well... you know what i mean, i dont think they notice all the little things that we notice about ourselves. What I'm saying, is don't worry about it! He's not perfect either! Maybe he has a bit of a gut or love handles or nasty back hair! (well hopefully not nasty back hair!).

 

Well, he can like slender, and athletic, and toned all he wants.....i mean, dont u like that too? or wouldnt you want to be like that too? but we can't in this world of miccy d's...plus personality only gets better, looks dont.

[phyrespryte]

Justagirl...sorry he didn't call back. But yeah I've got friends who do the same thing. And actually sometimes I do it too.

Well I hope that things start to look up. Hey whatever happened to that place you interviewed for?

 

Sunshine...wow! Kim is pretty blunt eh? I guess he didn't owe you an explanation, but he came on pretty strong. I mean it wasn't like he just discovered that he was seeing someone. But whatever. This Mike guy is adorable! Hope you guys get together this weekend. And I wouldn't worry about the atlethic/slender thing. What I've noticed is that slender for guys is very different for women. Like when I think slender I think bony supermodels and for guys it just means you don't weigh over 300lbs.

You've got a nice personality and your pic is very cute...so I think that you've got nothing to worry about. Oh and for things to talk about...Just bring up things that you've talked about online or on the phone. Pretend like you're talking to one of your friends about random things. That's all I can think of. I'm sure it'll just flow.

 

Oh and the match.com guy I met... Well a couple of weeks ago we had the "friend" talk. So now we are friends. And on Monday he got back with his ex. I was a little heartbroken. But then I remembered that there wasn't really any chemistry between us and the friends thing actually works out great. Except that I don't see him as much. And I kind of miss that. Oh well.

I haven't talked to Excrush yet. And I'm going to keep trying to avoid him for as long as I can. I hate confrontation.

 

So two guys out of my life. And I'm am so single right now. Where's the foreign guy when I need him??? I haven't seen him all week. I can't ask out a guy that I can't find. Oh well. I have to say that school is way exciting and I've got all kinds of crazy projects. So I'm sort of not looking for a relationship right now. And plus one more quarter and I get to study abroad! :bunny:

 

So right now things are fabulous, but I wouldn't mind it if the foreign guy would make an appearance.

[justagirl1121]

All of us single.....tho i bet our new friend here finds her man before we do!

 

I hate when you can't get the chance to do what you pump yourself up to do. It's very annoying!!!

 

As for the interview thing, well, Tuesday is my last day at my current job! Jan 30th, I start training for like 4-6 weeks!!! I know most of the stuff already since i've been dealing with the company for a little over a year, so I'm sure there could potentially be some nap time if I didn't think that'd get me fired!

 

I'm highly excited. Benefits! Vacation! Cell phone plan! wooo hooo!!!!

 

I got my packet in the mail yesterday, so i have to figure out which health plan will be best. It's all online too. It's so confusing!!! But I'm very excited too!

 

I haven't heard anything from Scott yet. Sometimes it's just so GAH and GRR and UGG. My best friend, she went to baltimore that's like 5 hrs away. she met some guy. he's cute. they talk. she visits. they're dating. just like that. i'm like WTF? Yeah, i'm kinda jealous. i mean, WTF!?!? HOW?!

 

[sunshine2627]

Well, I doubt I will find a man anytime soon. Just when I give them the benefit of the doubt they do something to prove me wrong. I was supposed to meet up with friend of mine to celebrate his birthday. HE was the one who invited ME to come out with him. Well here it is almost midnight and no word from him. Then he wonders why I don't have anything to say to him whenever we see each other out. When we first met we had an attraction but it was always bad timing and he never had his head on straight. Then I seen him out a couple weekends ago, he tried to cheer me up and told me he would like to go out sometime. He told me he has changed and maybe he has somewhat but not enough. Once again, he made me look like a dumb a**!

 

I haven't talked to Mike since Tuesday. I know we talked about possibly doing something either tonight or Sunday but neither one of us made an attempt to contact each other. I e-mailed him earlier in the week telling him I would let him know what my work schedule was for Sunday but I never did. Apparently he didn't want to get together either so, I don't know. I'll see what happens this weekend.

 

Most of my friends are either married or dating someone seriously and I am usually the third wheel. It's so frustrating. They all do the "couple" stuff and Im stuck at home watching movies or doing whatever. He's out there somewhere but gosh does he have to be so freakin' difficult to find! I tell my mom that I am going to be an old maid and the only grandchildren she'll have is from my sister.

 

Congratulations on the new job! What will you be doing? I hate signing up for benefits online. I have to do that where I work and we have to do it during work hours. It would be so much easier if we had packets of info so we could take home and fill out ourselves. But I guess since the company is so large that it would be difficult.

 

Phyrespryte, what are you going to school for? How much longer do you have? Sometimes I wish I would have thought a little more about what I wanted to do. I keep telling myself that Im gonna go back one of these days but I haven't yet. First I need to figure out what I want to do before I attempt to go back.

 

Still no word from the guy I was supposed to meet up with tonight. Just as well I guess. I am still trying to get over a cold that I've had for about a week. I finally talked myself into going to the Dr. today and he tells me I have a sinus infection. My head is pounding, my eyes feel like they could pop out at any given moment and my cheeks hurt! So with all that being said, I'm gonna get ready for bed.

 

Hope you girls have a good weekend. I'll talk to ya soon.

 

Oh yeah I just sent him a hateful text explaining why I never make an attempt to talk to him when I see him out cause he does this to me all the freakin' time.

[justagirl1121]

I think guys are being bastards. My friend has just had the same line thrown on her, the "i'm not interested in a relationship" AFTER he persued and made all the moves on her. I told my best friend and she was like "what is this, an epedemic?" GAH!

 

I am going to baltimore this weekend (4-5 hr trip) to visit a friend with my best friend. the three of us were roomies sr yr in college. the now baltimore friend has a bf and my best friend found her guy when she went visiting out there. makes me a little jealous..i can't help it....but i'll be the 5th wheel and i know what's going to happen. i'm excited....but at the same time.....not....a lot of my friends or at least college associates are getting married. the thing i dont understand is that for a couple of these people, they've never dated anyone before and so their first is their husband. but everywhere around me they're getting engaged and married. i know that's normal...but some of these people aren't really all that great...what i mean is they're not super pretty, they're not super popular, they dont' have these outstanding personalities....not to be cruel to them, and not to make myself look like i'm better....but it just doesn't make sense in this world where looks are all important.

 

well, for my new job i'll be in customer service for verizonwireless. i start monday! free hot cocoa, tea, coffee from the breakfroom whenever....i miss their philly steak and cheese sandwiches and fried ravioli, tho it can get pricey...and making some new friends. watch there be some super hot dudes there...but im against dating someone so close in the work place. not that im sure anything would even come up there looking at my track record but.....still....i dont even want the pressure. im just kind of fed up and hurt and depressed about that side of life tho i am looking forward to my girls nights out with my other friends.

 

i guess what happens, will eventually happen!

[sunshine2627]

Sorry I've been slacking on the posts this week. It's been a long and stressful week for me. If I'm not working at my PT job, I'm playing volleyball and I visit my parents at least one night during the week. Trying to find time to myself seems impossible sometimes. My apartment looks like a disaster and I can't seem to get motivated to clean.

 

My department at work had a meeting earlier in the week. I was very angry after it was over along with some other co-workers. I felt like we were in high school. Our supervisors talked to us about dress codes and what we can and cannot wear. Tready, classy, cheap were all mentioned. They even went as far as going on the internet and finding pictures. I had to laugh b/c I recognized some of the clothes they said were and weren't acceptable b/c they were from my PT job. There are at least 4 different generations in our department they can't expect us to all dress the same.

 

Something else that really pissed me off is our sick time. Usually we are allowed to make up our time during the week since we work the standard 40 hours. Now, we have to make up the time missed that day b/c they can't seem to keep up w/ everyone! If we can't make that time up then we have to take our sick time. They said we have 10 hrs. in a day to make up time. We have our lunch and our supervisors are there 1/2 hr before and after work. I don't think that's right. Next Tuesday is the start of braces and then the following Tuesday I actually get them put on. I don't want to use all my freakin' sick time for my braces. What if I get sick later on in the year and don't have any time left? I was told "we'll work with you".

 

We are no longer allowed to eat at our desk, why I'm not exactly sure. So if we go to the gym or whatever over lunch and don't have time to eat, we have to eat on our break or not at all. None of the other departments are like this. Ooooh I made the mistake of saying that and I got "we're not other departments".

 

Yesterday they called us all together to tell us how disappointed they are in us. We have low production and high errors. Some of the stuff we're doing is going to cause our production to lower b/c it's so time consuming. I left work yesterday not having a good feeling. I'm so ready to get out of that place.

 

On top of all that, my friend told me she has a STD. What she has is curable take goodness but it was an eye opener. One of my other friends has one too. Unfortunetly her's isn't curable but treatable. The guy she is with now accepts her and is ok with it. When she first told I should have taken more responsibility but I didn't and now I'm a little freaked out. I keep trying to convince myself something surely would have showed up in a course of 2 years. I also know that isn't always the case. So guess what I'm going to do at my next appointment, yep you guessed it.

 

I ran into a guy that I dated for a short while last week. We have tried to remain friends. We talk occasionally when we see each other out but last week I ended that. A few of us went out after our volleyball game and he was there. Some of the players were getting ready to leave and some stayed. So what did I do? The dumbass I am, I started talking to him. I had entirely way too much to drink and we ended up having sex. I hated myself the next morning and maybe that's why I am so freaked out about my friend. The good thing is we used protection but it doesn't make things right. I guess I was having a weak moment that night. I know he's out enjoying his single life and that should have stopped but it didn't. I wish I could take it all back that night but I can't. I don't want to get back with him so I don't know what happened. I told him not to approach me if he see's me out. If I want to talk to him I'll come to him.

 

Are there any good guys left out there? I post my profile on Match and Yahoo again. I've gotten a few e-mails but nothing that I want to pursue. I even had one that contacted me from prision. I'm gonna jump right on that one. Check him out if ya want. His picture isn't posted though.

http://www.match.com/profile/showprofile.aspx?lid=24&RN=4&PI=3&TP=NES&UID=HVDAlRAnBljcSca2oRlDYA%3d%3d&Handle=wissewolf&DO=0Check him out if ya want.

 

Well I hope you had a good time in Baltimore this weekend. I'm ready to take a weekend trip somewhere but it's hard to get everyone together. We usually go to Indy to visit a couple of our friends but sometimes I wish we would go somewhere else close.

 

Congratulations again on the new job. I am so against dating someone close in the work place. I did that once and it was horrible after we broke up. I eventually had to quit. He wasn't the main reason why I quit but partly the reason. I'm right there with ya about feeling hurt and depressed. Only a few weeks away from Valentines Day and I can almost guarantee I will be celebrating Anti-Valentines Day. I believe this will be the 4th annual. Everyone tells me he's out there somewhere and I'll know when it happens. I hate the waiting game but in the end I guess it will be well worth it, right?

 

Sorry for such the long post. Guess I needed to vent some. Have a good weekend. Talk to ya soon.

[phyrespryte]

Justagirl...

I think that there's something in the water making people fall in love and we haven't been drinking that water.

Seriously! I've noticed that everyone is either finding a new love, or reuniting with their ex, or even getting married! It's driving me crazy. Because I'll look at them and I'll think what the heck is wrong with me? I don't get it. Why can't I seem to hold on to someone?

 

Sunshine...

Your mean texts crack me up.

I wish I could do things like that.

That std thing is really scary though. I'm sorry about your friends having to deal with that. That sucks. And don't feel bad about that moment you had with your old friend. It happened and it's over. At least it was a little fun? Sorry...I don't know what to say.

 

As to are there any good guys out there? I have no flipping clue. I hope so. I'm so sick of being single. I mean I think I'm starting to lower my standards. Even Mr.Prison guy was starting to look good.

[phyrespryte]

:mad:

 

I seriously have some stupid luck. Tonight I decided I wasn't going to class because I needed to get caught up with my assignments. And since it's a guest speaker class and it's not really a big deal and I always go so missing one time wouldn't be a big deal and and and... I have a list of amazingly good reasons not to go.

 

Well guess what? Tonight one of the hot shots over at this ad agency was speaking. I mean this guy is like a really big deal. And I missed it!!! Even worse...the foreign guy...well he never goes to guest speaker...but he thinks that he wants to work for that agency...so I bet he was there!!!

 

 

I'm such a dorkhead.

 

I could've seen him tonight!!!

 

Anyways, just felt like sharing that with everyone.

 

[justagirl1121]

aw man, that sucks! I have done stuff...or usually NOT done stuff and later i just want to kill myself for being such a moron. its just the unluck of the straw i guess.

 

i havent talked to scott in like over 2 weeks. on my baltimore trip my friend txted him from my phoen and said 'what's up scotty too hotty? this is nikki. we're going to baltimore. bet u wish you could have come with us." and he never responded. i told her he wouldnt. later, she was like that jerk! and she txted back and was like "don't you like me any more? are you scared of me? =nikki" and still nothing! i feel like hes' avoiding me but maybe he's not calling for same reason im not calling? i told nikki about how after he put the moves on me he told me he didnt want a relationship, but at the same time, driving back home, he took my hadn like 2x in the car. and before we got out we kissed again (im not sure who maved the move or what....but it hap pened) and i told nikki he took my hand and she's like see that is DEFINITELY like date stuff. you DONT do that. he's sooooo confusing. im suppsoed to call and invite him out for when her bf from baltimore comes to visit for the first time.

 

i dont get it. she was dating mike when she met chris. she didnt start dating him, but she was just kinda tlaking on the phone. her and mike werent doing so good anyway. chris is really nice, and mature, and it happened just like that for her and him. i am a bit jealous. and i feel really hurt. i really dont know what to do. i guess i should just call him. im suppsoed to ask him to go out. i think i might be like 'i am going out with chris and nikki. do you want to come? i dont want to be like the 3rd wheel" but if hes not interested i dont want him to think its like a double date thing u know? or maybe he WILL like that? nikki said, see how it goes if he comes and at the end of the night you can pull him aside and ask him what's up.

 

what do you girls think? i mean, i dont want to scare him off but dont u think i should have the right to ask or know what's going on? either no you definitely want NOTHING then i'll know. but if you kinda want something, then lets try taht. nothing has to be serious. its alittle scary for me, but i like him soooooo much and i hae NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE felt even a fraction of this much for a person. nikki says she thinks he reallly really likes me but he's not sure what he wants. like if he does move away and stuff, but she thinks that should be my decision, if i want to try, and nobody does what he's done inregards to persuing me and then tell me hes not interested. he says one thing and then says the complete opposite, and that makes NOOOOOO sense....

 

so i think i'll call him tomorrow. my first day on the job was ok. free pizza and stuff. but they went over the code of conduct and stuff and it was kidna long. my hours are now 3-11:30pm! friday nights are going to suck!

 

earlier i got some nasty text messages. i got this number i dont recognize. it was a city area code so it was local....they were really nasty. i asked who it was and they said allisha.and i said u have the wrong number. and they kept txting me!!!! lol ihad to call my own customer service to find out how to block it. i feel so dumb cause i now work for them yet had to call in lol....this person doesnt have verizon tho.

 

i dont understnad what the hell it is with trying to find someone special. i never thought it'd be so hard, and finally i was getting somewhere and im still no where, it's just killing me!!

 

it does make me feel a bit better that im not the only one and we're all finding similar experiences, but it's like with my friend and chris....how'd that happen!?!

 

there are 2 maybe 3ish cute guys in my training class. not going for the hook up with a coworker thing tho. stayin' out of that. they are cute tho...and im picky! well actually, dark haired guys i think are hot...and i like a bit of a bigger guy. taller and not real bone skinny. i guess i wanna feel like i have something to hug or that i can disappear into their hug...

 

Ok, i have to tell you about my baltimore trip! you'll laugh!!!

 

The road trip itself is so much fun! my bff and i got to our friends around 5 on friday. we went to this bar called howl at the moon and had free taco buffet thing and 2 drinks for a dollar. then we went to this other place and had food and wine. (well us 3 girls did). now i dont eat sea food. im starting to change my mind tho. i eat tuna. thats it. i tried calimari!!!!!!!!!!! and it was goood! i ate squid!!!!!! omg!!! and i rode in a cab for the first time ever!!! we went to a martini bar too and i had something that was like citrusy...it was okay. im not big on martini's but it wasnt bad. then we found this other place and there was some dude with a fur coat on and he called himself porno dan. we kept getting hit on buy old guys while waiting for the bathroom.

 

what is the deal with only 1 bathroom in bars? its insane.

 

anyway, so nikki went home with chris and i went home with mandy. well mandy wanted to go look at houses. why would i want to go look at houses? okay the houses shes looking at arent that nice. they're 225,000. those same houses here in parts of my city would go for like 20,000 if that....dont ask how she's gonna afford that. anyway, so i got stuck in the back seat while her bf and she drove around and looked at houses!!!! nikki and chris suggested going to a thai food place later and they were all for it until we got back to nick's apt and they get all quiet and are all like 'a movie sounds really good. yeah pizza and a movie. i just could stay in and do that." and so im in the back seat thinking waht the hell? what am i supposed to do here? so yeah, and i couldnt really tell nikki anything on hte phone b/c tehy were all right there. so in the end, mandy dropped me off at nick's but she's like 'i plan on going to bed at like 11:30, so i'd appreciate it if you could be back by then." !!!!!!! i had a curfew from my friend!!!!!!!! she was just pissed that we didnt want to do what she wanted to do. so i never got to see DC like we planned tho we did go to Thai Phoon which was A LOT of fun. itwas nikki, chris, and i and chris's married couple (25 yr old). his wife and i have the same name and his name aws mike. it was FUN. so i got back that night for mandy. and i told her we needed to leave sun morning by 1pm to get back home. (4 hrs or so). and she says shes going to church. and when i asked hwat time she goes 'depends on when i go.' i was like ooohkkkkk...that clarifies things. 'if i go at 8 i'll be back around 10. if i go at 11:30 i'll be back around 1' and i was like 'but i cant leave without u here right? i cant lock the door from outside' 'yeah that might be a problem. i guess i'll try to go to the 8:00 one.' yeah well she never went to that one, she ended up going to the later one and didnt get back till 12:15 and nikki chris and i were going to have lunch at noon so we could leave at 1 and we didnt end up getting back on the road till 3pm.

 

i cant stand immature people! im so sick and tired of their whiney baby ways. i've had enough.

 

sorry i had to rant. i just cant believe i 1. had to go house hunting 2. had a curfew 3. essentially got trapped in an apartment.

[phyrespryte]

lol you had a curfew!

 

That's crazy. Some people are really nuts. You should've told them that you weren't interested in buying a house that day.

 

In regards to Scott, have you asked him out yet? He's really slow like molasses.

 

I don't know if you should ask him out. But who knows what will happen? I guess just don't have huge expectations. You know? I mean he said he doesn't want a relationship and maybe him not contacting you is just his way of keeping things neutral?

 

But if you did ask him out...I want to know what happened!

My life is so boring right now. I've been sick with the flu and I've missed almost two weeks of school. Well one week actually the other week was me just not having any homework done. And today I got a letter from the school saying that I missed two classes in Design History and if I miss another class I'll fail the course.

 

The funny thing is they sent me like this official looking pdf letter thing, but with another student's name on it. So does that mean I can still miss more classes?

 

Whatever I don't plan on missing anymore classes.

[justagirl1121]

Where is sunshine??? Maybe she hooked up with an awesome man.....probably the last one out there.

 

You know what, my trainer for this new job is pretty hot. Why can't i find someone i am interested in based on looks lol?

 

I did call scott on tue night. i even mentioned my hours so he can call before or after. i have't heard from him and its well...friday morning...here's what i know for sure. I think he is interested in me. but he's being a total loser. its not like i did all the moves, HE did...one part of me thinks he is purposely ignoring me. the other part is just kinda still hopeful. I read a book and there was a saying that "As long as there is cake, there's hope. And there's always cake." He said he didnt want to see me hurt, but I already really am and I'm trying to not be stupid, but it's like, there's no one to move on to!!!

 

im sorry i go on adn on so much about this. you're prob all like just freakin move on already.

 

I'm really jealous of my best friend. Her guy is really cool. He sent me an email tonite. he got the email off her and wanted to know about some thing for her bday. it's just like an itch i cant get rid of, im sure u know what i mean. she says she thinsk there are 2 kinds of relationships. one that starts out as friends first and then grows into a relationship, which is what i have, and the second skips friends and goes straight to the relationship, which is why she has.

 

i just want a nice looking guy, who is witty and funny and nice and takes an interest in what i have to say.

 

as for going out, that'd be on the 11th, and my brother will be 12 on the 12th...so i have to find out if a bday thing is going on on sat or sun for him, cause if it is sat i prob cant go anywhere anyway....so i'll have to see. i HATE living with my parents with a passion.

 

so i hope you feel better! i was sick back in nov. i lost my voice and everything. ever since i have had a very slight cold. in my job, sick is not good esp if it deals iwth losing your voice, as i will be on the phones all the time!!!! the pdf thing is funny. schools can be stupid sometimes. if it had soemone else's name on it, how did it get to you???

[phyrespryte]

hi justagirl!

 

I'm going to have to agree with you, I think sunshine has found her man!

 

Scott is such a butt head. I hope he did ask you out tonight. If not he's a butt head. Geez Louise. I mean it's just dating. Not a marriage. Wouldn't it be great if people could just hang out and see what happens without thinking so much?

 

Oh and don't worry about the whole moving on thing. I mean it seems there's so much unfinished business between you guys. I still think you should hang out with other guys. Well when you find one. Why not your hot trainer? Well actually that might be odd. Workplace dating...not a great idea. Unless you don't have to see him all the time.

 

I'm jealous of your best friend too. How does she do it? Like I'd just like to meet a guy and have a relationship just automatically happen. Instead of all this craziness of calling and waiting and wondering. I hate it.

 

Oh! Speaking of things I don't like. I had a couple of dreams about the foreign guy. 3 in total. The first two were really bad dreams.

Like in the first one...I went out with him to some buffet thing for lunch (there was a group of people with us too). And when I went to get food he started making out with this blonde girl!

 

And the second dream...He and his friend came to visit my house. And I couldn't talk to him because all this stuff kept us apart. So we just kept giving each other goofy looks. Then when he was leaving I tried to talk to him, but he got really mad because it was starting to get dark and he didn't know how to get back to his place.

 

And the 3rd dream was kind of good. I went to a party and I got to make out with him. Except he was drunk. And in the dream I kept thinking that I can't tell if he really likes me because he's drunk.

 

I'm not sure what to think of all that. I've never had so many crappy dreams about a guy I liked. Usually I'll have good dreams and then in real life things wouldn't be so good. So maybe this is a good thing?

[justagirl1121]

YAY, it's friday! err sat now! I just got done working. I hope i get used to the hours. I am more of a night person, but that doenst really include work!!!

 

Yeah, no word from scott...im not sure what to think, but i am rather mad at him and just want to be like screw him but at the same time i feel really hurt and like crying. i just thought we were better friends and he he was a nice guy and wouldnt do something like that.

 

i mean, its like what is so wrong with me? thats how i feel with all this stuff not working out.

 

sometimes i have dreams too, but they're usually good dreams, like u said, and then it doesnt work out...so lets hope its a good thing!!!! i think the 2 bad dreams were kinda like your defense that you want to prepare yourself to be hurt so u know its coming if it does, u know what i mean? its hard to try to figure someone out when you cant get a hold of them. its like how many times should i call him? should i call one more time, or ignore him from now on or call hima dn be like what the f is your problem? im almost ready to let nikki have his phone number and let her rip into him......i dont have to ever see him again, right? i just need some CLOSURE!!!!

 

my friend says she is scared too that it wont work out for her and chris. but it like, she's really not gone without a guy....she did go w/o a bf technically, but there were boys there who were into her. i mean she's pretty....and i love her to death...but she's not like someone i woudl think guys would be all over so suddenly. they dont even really know her and they're all into her. same goes for everyone. me.....im so sick of trying i dont even really know what to even do to meet anyone, except try online but i just dont have the heart to get into it if the interest isnt already there......

 

the guys in the training class aren't too bad..well richard is....well a whole other story....omy goodness lol....u know how u get those vibes somehow...from other people, well i feel like im getting this vibe from thsi new guy greg. its just like u know how you accidently lock eyes with people sometimes when u walk by and stuff? well that's what keeps happening...and when we were walking down the steps after dinner tonite, this other guy was like 'how are you doing today?" which i just am not used to...he's probably being nice, but its just like 'why did he come talk to me, guys never come talk to me!"

 

i guess there is a guy who works here, i knew him when i temped there, and apparenty he likes me some, that's what scotta dn shonna have told me. ithink scott seriously thought i went out w thsi guy tim, but tim never really made any move. he's a red head and im not really into red head guys but im just like...well maybe i SHOULD hang out with him if i happen to see him around and he makes any sort of communication...i just dont want to get involved at work. i think it'd be a bad idea.

 

hten i think thats how school would be.....but i guess thats more short term; maybe i should stick with definitely NOT in the same department.

 

life is so freakin complicated. i wanna be 8 years old again!!!!!!!!!

 

well i guess i should go to bed since its 12:30 am and i am going on a 2 hr trip to see my freind for her bday and i didnt wrap her gift or pack any clothes

 

oh yeah and superbowl sun when i get back i am going to meet my friend to watch the super bowl. GO STEELERS!!!!!!!! :)

[justagirl1121]

i just was thinking about something. i dont really get it. i got some guy friends who message me online all the time. timmy, jordan, chris, and dave, primarily. they talk to me ALL the time. so.... like......i dont know! scott seems to be interested, he put the moves on and i cant get ANY FREAKIN WERE, but then these other boys are always talkin to me, like i must be cool and interesting or something. i dont know, that's just an observation i made.....

[sunshine2627]

Hi girls! Sorry I have posted lately. I started playing volleyball a couple nights a week and then I also have a PT job. So finding time just for myself sometimes seems impossible. I have been stressin' again lately. Just when I start to feel good about things something ends up changing. I tend to worry a lot and I guess I can be somewhat of a hypercondriac. I think I am just really stressed to the max. Plus I am not completely happy with a lot of things either.

 

No, I have not found myself a man yet and I don't have any prospects. Looks like Valentines Day is going to be Anti-Valentines Day. Too bad we all didn't live closer. We could celebrate this wonderful occassion together!!

 

Well, Tuesday I am getting braces. I am little nervous but at the same time excited. I had to go to my orthodontist last Tuesday to get separators between some of my teeth. They are just rubber bands in the front and back of my first molars. I have a total of eight in which one already broke this morning. I will also have to get a total of 6 teeth pulled. So these next few weeks are gonna be rough. Talk about an expensive weight loss program! The end result though will be well worth it. I get compliments all the time on my smile. So I keep telling myself what's gonna happen when my teeth are all straight. I'll have the guys beating down my door. Yeah right!!

 

I am sorry Justagirl you have not heard from Scott. I'm thinking maybe you should just forget about him and move on. You made an attempt to contact him and he hasn't called you back. Go out with your friends and have a good time. If he calls ya great and if not then no big deal. Believe me I know it's easier said then done. I am the same way when a start of a relationship doesn't work out. It sucks being single. I always hope that maybe playing volleyball and softball there will be some guy that I will meet. Yep hasn't happened yet. There is a guy that I play volleyball with who is a cutie patootie but he has a girlfriend. I wouldn't do anything to break them up because they're cute together and I think they might have something special.

 

Well I guess I better get going. Going out to dinner with some friends tonight. Have a good night.

[funfriend]

Justagirl,

 

I think your scott is gay...don't get upset, I read your post...all of them. I really do think he might be gay. My best friend dated a guy who acted just like this before he finally came out of the closet. He is gay. Move on. Run.

[justagirl1121]

yeah, i am PRETTY sure he is NOT gay. He's being an ASS, but he's not gay. He's just confused I think (as am i, and scared, but willing to deal with it) and maybe not as sauve as he appears.

[newbby]

greg would say "dont waste yer pretty"

[phyrespryte]

Well justagirl....I think Scott is gay.

 

I'm sorry that's too funny. I don't think he's gay, but maybe it wouldn't hurt to think of him like that?

 

Anyways I kind of believe (kind of) that men and women can't truly be just friends. That there's always some kind of attraction holding them together. I don't think I've ever had a good guy friend that either I had a crush on them or they had a crush on me. Sexual tension I suppose makes for more attentive friends?

 

Anyways I think that guys like you and maybe all you need to do is work on your flirting skills? Like maybe they don't realize that you're attracted to them as more than friends? And I'm not referring to Scott because he knows already.

 

Oh and your microwave co-worker guy...he sounds cute and sweet. Too bad you can't make a move on him. He just sounds so nice!

 

Sunshine...I hope you're doing ok. That's a lot of teeth to get pulled! That stuff scares me. I really should get my wisdom teeth removed, but I'm way too scared for that. I really do hope you're not in too much pain.

 

But hey I'm up for an anti-Valentine's day party! I've got nothing better to do on that day.

 

 

So this is going to be a huge post....

 

Well not really. Friday night, thing at my school. I had no one to talk to...left early. Ran into foreign guy who was arriving as I was leaving. Smiled at him, but was walking too fast to stop. He had surprised look on his face, but didn't smile back. I don't know if he didn't smile back b/c he didn't have enough time to react. He really looked surprised.

 

Anyways...he was with his guy friend and behind them were two girls. I wonder if he has a girlfriend?

 

Well when I got home that night I sent him an email. Which I know is really dumb and I shouldn't have done it. It went something like:

 

Sorry didn't stop to say hi as I was in a rush. But seeing you tonight reminded me that I like you and would like to get to know you better. So was wondering if you'd like to get together for coffee or lunch sometime?

 

Well it's Sunday night and I'm spazzing out b/c I haven't received a letter back. My friend tells me not to worry b/c most people don't check their emails over the weekend. And that I probably should get a response by Monday.

 

But I find that hard to believe b/c I check my email like 3 times a day. But then again I sent it to his school email. That's how I know his email address. Because we all have the same setup for the email, first name last name @ school.net. Why I didn't remember this sooner is beyond me. Anyways, I don't check that email over the weekend so I guess he wouldn't either.

 

The suspense is killing me!!!

 

I really feel like this right now ------>

Then people keep sending me these horrible chain letter things about your love won't love you unless you send this to 902384829348 people. And then I think cheesy things like...omg! That's why I haven't gotten an email back!

 

Ok enough rambling for now.

[justagirl1121]

Okay, I hope that foreign guy emails you back! I wouldn't stress over it until say...tuesday! He might not get it over the weekend. Sometimes I don't check my email for days. Usually because I don't get any haha. Txt msg and the phone is used a lot more I guess. He might also not be sure how to answer so he might have to think about it for like a day before replying...it might freak him out a little as he probably didn't suspect it and needs to get used to it? That's how i'd be. It wouldn't like Freak me out in the sense that i'm like omg ewww just omg! someone likes me! im surprised! ok now how should i approach this best?

 

anyway, i know how ya feel!!!

 

sunshine, i hope you're feeling better! that's a lot of teeth!!!! i hate dentists, i always get ill after from all the nasty smells and stuff. it just makse me yucky feeling. i need to go soon, now that i have health insurance, whoohoo!!!!!!

 

so the dude from work who gave me the giftcard...has a fiancee. so i have nooo idea why he was that nice over something that miniscule. He seems funny though. I think i'm forcing myself to try to look at other guys and find an attraction.

 

my thing is, im not an emotional person. i like pretty much everyone...tho i dont feel that "attraction" with hardly anyone....unless maybe i become closer with them. which i haven't had too many chances of. my guy friends, im not attracted to them in any sense. not that they're not cute dudes and not funny....its just not there. maybe we're truely truely in "the friendship zone."

 

Well, i think i have a resolution on gaydude. I had called him like 2 weeks ago and he never answered. I called him last night. I figured, one more go and that's it. If he didnt asnwer i'd leave a msg. like "hi, its me, i havent talked to you in forever so im calling to see what's going on with you. give me a call back when you get this ok? Bye"

 

i figured the "going on with you" is sorta like a "what the hell is your deal man?" with a "what have you been up to" at the same time...

 

if he answered great. he doesn't ever answer, so its not like him not answering now is a big shock u know.......anyway, not only did he not answer, but i couldnt even leaving a flippin vmail because his mailbox was FULL!!!!!!!!!

 

so then i cried a little b/c i was upset. just b/c i want it to come to some sort of closure so bad so i can let it go b/c im trying but i just cant. jerk.

 

i deleted his name from my phone. it was pretty easy....but i think thats only b/c i could get it again if i needed to.

 

i do feel a bit better....i just feel like im being left behind b/c everyone around me is finding these awesome dudes at the moment, and im 23. i ought to have something like that come into my life by now.

 

my friend shonna has the worse luck ever. i dont understand, i never ever thought guys were so like this, so constantly!!!! its such bs.

[phyrespryte]

I'm sorry justagirl. That sucks that his mailbox is full. The whole closure thing really is a bitch. It would be nice if things could just be all thrown out in the open...feelings, wants, and boundaries all communicated and agreed on. But things never seem to be that easy.

 

Well you deserve better than that. He's an idiot and I think he's immature and doesn't know what he's doing. And it's good that you deleted his number even if it seemed too easy. It's a start. I'm going to sound all "girl power" cheesy, but you go girl!

 

Heh. But it's a good step in reclaiming your heart and time. The less you're reminded of him the better I think.

 

Sorry that giftcard guy is engaged. I guess he's just one of those really nice people. Which is awesome. He sounds like he could be great friend and maybe he'd know some equally nice single guys? But even if he doesn't, it's nice to know that there are people that thoughtful.

 

I don't know if this will make you feel any better, but I'm 24 and I still haven't found an awesome guy. Today match.com guy was helping me with another photo project and when he left I was so bummed because I was hoping that we could hang out together even though he has a girlfriend now. So you're not alone. And this is probably a horrible story, but I suppose there's a little hope... my mom didn't get married until she was 32!!!!

 

And the way she met my dad was so random and unexpected. I mean they were engaged before they even met face to face. Her sister knew my dad and set them up. My mom lived in another country so they had to be penpals for awhile. So I guess love happens when you don't expect it?

Too bad I don't feel like waiting so long.

 

Oh well. It's 2:00pm Monday, no email from him yet. I'll give him till tuesday, but I really don't have high hopes anymore. I bet he has a girlfriend already. Oh well.

 

It's going to be a long week.

[phyrespryte]

11:42pm Monday night

 

nothing.

 

thoughts:

 

the nicest thought possible is that he hasn't received an email yet, because there's a bug in the system.

 

i'm not an optimist.

 

i'm trying to think how I'd react if I received the letter from someone I was attracted to. I would be so afraid to respond, but I would respond right away because I wouldn't want to mess things up.

 

if it was from someone I wasn't attracted to I'd take a little longer, but I'd probably respond the same day I got the letter. Only because I'd want to get that stuff straightened out right away. Or I'd never respond which is what I had done awhile back b/c this friend of mine started to freak me out. Soooooo..

 

yeah that sounds about right. never respond because i'd be too wimpy to hurt his feelings.

 

So that's what I think might be happening.

 

But at the same time it's like...

 

I don't know. It just doesn't add up with his actions. You know?

 

Could he be that shy about responding? Oh well.

 

We're supposed to be getting an email about a new competition which will include a list of dates and times to get our ideas critiqued by a teacher...so he'll have a day after that email arrives. After that I'm moving on. Shoot.

 

It's not like I'm all gross and nasty.

 

blah

 

that's enough insanity for tonight.

[phyrespryte]

Happy Valentine's day to all who read this.

This thread almost has 5,000 views. Crazy.

 

Today wasn't that bad, almost like a regular day except with chocolate. Since I'm posting 3 in a row obviously it wasn't too great either though.

 

I had a pretty brutal critique today in where the teacher said what I had created had style, but no substance. So now I need to find a writer to add "substance". I'm extremely pissed, but he was right. What I had written was "retarded". But I'm not a copywriter. It just sucks hearing that my work is nothing more than something pretty. I mean I do have a concept, I just can't translate it into words.

 

Of course no letter from the foreign guy. But this morning I had come to terms with the fact that he probably wouldn't get the email for a long time. EXCEPT... Well today I saw his friend as I was going to class. His friend we shall call Shaggy (not only do I suck at writing, I suck at naming too). Well Shaggy ends up walking into my class and stops in front of this one kid. They say hi and then Shaggy starts talking on his cell phone. It was real weird. You could tell the other kid was like...yeah....ooook? Then Shaggy walks out. I don't even know why he came into the room since he's not in my class and he didn't even stop to talk to anyone in the class. All I could hear of the conversation was "hey are you home right now"? First thought was that he was talking to foreign guy because they're roommates. But it could've been anyone.

 

So then as I was leaving that class I saw Shaggy's girlfriend and she just gave me this weird look.

 

 

Now being the paranoid weirdo I am...I started thinking....oh crap! What if he did get my email? And what if he told like a whole bunch of people? How horrible would that be?

 

Oh well. On a happier note. One of the photo students asked me if I'd pose for some photos. So I'm real excited about it b/c she's got a great portfolio and I'm hoping that she'll make me look like a rock star.

 

Or not. But I bet it'll be a lot of fun.

[justagirl1121]

Sorry Foreign Guy didn't email you back; but it's hard to tell when they'll check email. It's not like a cell phone where you KNOW they probably will see it within 24 hours.

 

Men just totally blow. My BFF Nikki has a bday coming up and i was planning on something special...well as special as u can get in this city. I came up with Cheesecake factory for dinner and then bar afterwards.

 

our friend timmy doesnt like that idea b/c dinner is too expensive (if he'd get a job and stop being spoiled by his parents MAYBE it wouldnt be too expensive.) He said he'd probably get dinner elsewhere (cheaper rest.) and then go to bar and i was like u have to go to dinner for her bday! nad he was like, 'i doubt she'll mind.' Well she does in fact mind, because he's basically implying that he's going to bar b/c its a chance to go to bar; her bday is just an excuse to go.

 

She thought it'd be cool to go to an Improv. Paulie Shore happens to be the host that night. Timmy is like BA. EXPENSIVE. Me=no money.

 

I just got fed up. i was like well this isnt FOR YOU. DONT GO THEN.

 

Yep, i've had it w people!!! I've soooo had it. I'm ready to chuck it all way!!!!

 

Im going out on thur with shonna. she is soooooooooooooooooo pissed with guys. shes gone out with like 10 or so guys in the last 4 mo and all of them have been total a-holes. they persue her and do all that txting 'night sweetie, wish you were with me' etc and then bam they ignore her and then they tell her they didnt want a relationship! i was like what is this, an epedemic??? guys suck!!

 

so like i had said, the trainer chris is pretty hot. Look up on imdb.com and check out adam corolla or something like that....you'll find a similarity....but i think, looking at the pics of adam that my trainer is better

 

um theres another trainer, his name is bobby. he was preeettty cute too. a little on the shorter side tho. that kind of puts me off. now theres another guy in my new hire class and his name is bobby too.....i dont even like the name bobby and here i am with two guys named bobby that i am not like rejecting. of coure nothing will happen there and i think imjust like trying to put my mind away from douchebag. i usually dont find myself in this "place" very often u know....

 

um....well.....i get first paycheck tomorrow!! i already know what it is. pay set up is diff than i ever had before so its a bit confusing. i'd always gotten paid for the 40 or 80 hrs worked depending on the lenght of pay period but this one is strictly the 15th and last day of month so i might get paid for like 14 days and 100 some hrs instead of 10 days and 80 hrs...

 

oh and u come up with cool names. Mr. ExCrush, Foreign Guy, Match.com, etc....u said shaggy i thought of like a cross between Shaggy from Scooby Doo and Shaggy the artist LOL

 

Happy V day!