Accomplished a lifetime goal but still unhappy =\

[TimmyC]

So here I am with one of my biggest accomplishments yet I still feel empty. For the past couple of months I've worked hard to keep my mind off of my, and I've set a goal to buy my dream car.

 

Well here I am with it in the driveway, and I still feel empty. I thought I would of atleast made enough progress to start forgetting her and it's as if it hasn't helped. I just can't forget all of the hurtful things she's said to me. It honestly feels like I'm constantly fighting a battle with myself to prove that I'm not crazy. I'm emotionally exhausted at this point. Today was the first time in awhile that I've contemplated suicide. Not because I'm wanting attention, or because I'm "sick and need help" I just don't want to live this way anymore. I'm conscious of the way I feel and part of me is tired of moping, but another part cannot help it. I know it takes time...but I can't keep feeling like this.

 

I would like to hear how you guys have coped with a similar situation like this, because I feel like there isn't any hope. I'm.sure she isn't feeling like this, so why should I have to?

[bummer]

If you decide to go forward, find a different way other than crashing your new 8. Send me the keys first!

 

Exercise. I know you're resisting, but don't. Just get up and do a hundred jumping jacks right now until you can't do any more. Sleep. Then repeat when you wake up. Eat a breakfast. If you aren't working, take your 8 for a stroll through the neighbourhood. Crank your jams and go through a drive thru and buy your favourite junk food meal.

 

You earned the right to be proud and happy. Don't shame yourself into feeling empty. I'm praying for you. Be strong.

[Rachel39]

Iv started to believe that money,cars, holidays, clothes ect will not heal your heart and soul. If I had all the things that I think would make me happy I would still have love for him and want him with me while I experience all this.

 

If I won the lottery tmrw my pain wouldn't go away. I do not feel suicidal but I don't want to wake up like I do and think of him day and night..... It's been nearly 7 months and the break up feels like yesterday... I still want him and love him it just doesn't go away because the other person stopsnall of that.

 

I dislike that after all of this time I hope he will want me again how stupid is that... I couldn't think about been with any one else kiss them or even go on a date.

 

I too have never felt this way even after a 16yr relationship... What also come with this is a sadness for myself that I feel this way that I am in able to move on and that I'm weak. I'm not sure when it will happen that I wake up and be grateful for what I have without wanting or obsessing over him daily

[keiji]

Was the breakup JUST two months ago?

[privategal]

Timmy, I don't post in these boards anymore but wanted to post to you.

I know your struggle well. After 2 months I found myself googling suicide. I was so low and the pain and void was too much to bare.

I actually bought my dream car too and think the fact that I couldn't even share the victory with my ex friend combined with the hope the purchase would bring me some satisfaction just emphasized how sad it all was.

I think there is something about months 2 and 3 in the healing process.

I think the initial shock wears off and you also begin to accept but accepting hurts too.

Please know the despair you feel is OK and normal.

Please see a doctor. I went and they put me on a low dose anti depressant. I felt bad like maybe I was crazy but its not forever. I have begun to heal now and the pill helped so much to control overwhelming emotions and let me process easier.

Its going to be OK. These strong hard days feel like they will never end but they do. My pain has gone down so much.

Not every day is perfect.

When you loved some one it will always be hard but you got this.

Prayers and strength and comfort to you. I'm seeing the light

..you will too.

[bummer]

I hope you treated yourself to a wonderful Tuesday! Still thinking about you.

[sorano]

Timmy you remember your well fudge thread right? Just keep reading over and over the advice we gave you. There was some solid stuff there. I know inside you know what to do.

 

There are going to be times where you fall back and will start to think about your ex. when you do? just let it out. confront it head on. cry if you have to cry, run, workout if you feel pissed off, break **** if you must. Let it out. confront it.

 

yesterday I was thinking of the time my ex said something stupid. I was so mad I felt like, well, let me not say it on a forum. Ill get in trouble. You get my drift. It happens man. Just focus on you.

 

All of us were told something nasty and we got dumped. we are all in the same boat. DO not give a second thought on those people who were wreckless with your heart. They do not deserve your time and energy or tears.

 

DO not worry about anything. Not the future, not whether you will have another gf or not, another love, get married or have kids, nothing. enjoy being single. Let life take its course.

 

Anyone who ever said negative things towards me, who dumped me, lied to me, etc, I feel bad for them. They have a problem. There the one's with the problem and are not happy inside. They have issues. Only remember the positive things people tell you. Throw that negative **** out the window.

 

And like I said in your other thread...........Your ex, my ex, his ex, all the loveshack members ex's that treated them badly, lied all that stuff? they aint ****.

[sorano]

Timmy how is it going? If it helps any, I had a set back myself. Me, the man that was 90% healed. I was doing great!

 

But of course, I found my ex on the dating site I joined a few months ago. It seems she just made it. I cannot do anything about it. I must regroup and cope once again.

 

I am looking at this as little stepping stones. I see a pattern with myself. I start to heal, then, I experience something new, some more traumatic. I then fall down. so I get back up and I start the process over. IMO, the next time I encounter that situation, I will be ready and it wont hurt as much. But I must go through all the steps.

 

Its ok.