She completely cut me off and I don't understand why

[Wensleydale]

I met this girl over a year ago and it took some time to get things going but we got close over last summer and were planning to have a date, we were long distance which is why it took so long. The problem is that when people get close to me I get scared romantically but I hide it well, I hide behind alcohol to get courage and it's become an increasing problem that ruined everything. We had our first date and it was lovely then we met up another night and I was wasted, she thought I was flirting with another girl so she stormed off, I got more wasted and ended up kissing another girl hours later which she saw and I didn't know. I felt terrible and she broke things off with me, it was wrong of me I know but I genuinely felt terrible I'd built something with this girl for almost six months and she was special.

 

So instead of sending her flowers or making it up to her I just went out and got drunk and then I'd text her apologising and looking needy an desperate, in the end she said don't contact me anymore which wounded me. I was really sorry but I guess actions speak louder than words. Two months ago we got talking again and buried the hatchet, I apologised for my behaviour and said I was calming down the drink. She'd say she was open to us again somewhere down the line and the past was buried but let's be friends because of the distance. About two weeks ago I got sick of her being hot and cold with me, I asked her out and she said no and then I said okay well if you change your mind give me q call sometime and if not then I wish you well. She called and just kept saying I treated her like **** and I needed to prove I care, I asked can we talk tomorrow when we're both sober. She text the next day saying she doesn't want anything to do with me and that I never did anything to prove I cared, I should've sent her flowers and got her address from her friends but I didn't, so she wished me well and said don't contact. She's said don't contact in the past and then got back in touch before.

 

So I decided I'd try one last time and I sent her flowers and wine last week, all I got was thanks for the gesture it was nice but you shouldn't have done it because I want nothing between us at all, good luck for the future and then blocked me off everything before I could even reply.

 

To be honest I know I did wrong but I tried to show I cared, if she wasn't so hot and cold then I would've done something sooner, it just upset me more that she roped me back in and then kept changing her mind. I'm guessing I just forget her now and move on? Shame it ended this way.

[juniorrocha]

Isn't it clear that this relationship doesn't work?

 

She completely cut me off and I don't understand why

 

Do you really don't understand why? It's very clear to me. Read your post.

 

You were a jerk. The girl isn't sure of what she wants and definitely wasn't going to let the past go. Be thankful she blocked you. You guys weren't going anywhere.

 

Now move on, go no contact as well and heal. You'll be fine.

[Wensleydale]

I know I was in the wrong but I made a mistake and I was sincere about it, I understand all of that. What I don't get is why did she start talking to me again telling me there's a chance and that she still cared about me and then I tried to make something of it and she went hot and cold. She said I never take action so I did something and then got blocked. I might've been the jerk at the beginning but I learned my lesson and was far from it in the end. I cared about her and messed up when I was blind drunk, that's not an excuse that's what made it even worse.

[randall]

You get drunk, kissed another while out on a date, then got drunk again when you should have apologized.

 

Then after you got her to talk to you again you waited only two weeks to call her and gave an ultimatum of date or go, all because you "got sick of her being hot and cold".

 

And you needto ask why she cut contact with you?