Saddest birthday ever

[guest569]

That was a tough day, I was away with family at a beach house and thinking he would have been there with us. I am missing him and know I will never see or hear from him again. He said as much. I would like to have heard from him. Now I'm a year older and feel as though I will never find anyone. I felt so lonely and was teary and suicidal on the morning of my birthday and my mood didn't improve much since. Yes, I've gone and gotten counselling and medication which has done absolutely nothing and yes, I will keep trying. But my patience is wearing thin. Christmas is going to be tough too as last year we shared some really special times together. Sadness and anger just takes over and I obsess over things that happened during and after our relationship. I am hurting so much and it is not improving after 5 months.

[guest569]

I should have been happy. On holidays with my family. But i just can't get out of this rut

[Kamille]

Happy belated birthday Smiley!

 

Maybe it would help if you stopped comparing what you think you should be feeling to what you are feeling. Feel what you have to feel and then let it go.

 

I'm also glad you spent time with your family. It's important to avoid isolating yourself. I find sometimes focusing on other people's lives helps me forget the problems in mine, however briefly.

[guest569]

Thank you

[Mr Scorpio]

You had a beach house to go to? Lucky. You had a family there with you? Lucky! You've lived another year? Lucky. You have access to counseling and medication? Lucky! You got to share really special times with someone you loved at Christmas? Lucky. You're five-months removed from zero-hour? Lucky! You're so positive that your screen-name is Smiley1? Awesome!

[guest569]

Lucky? Basically all I want is to die. Yes that is fantastic.

[loveiswar101]

Lucky? Basically all I want is to die. Yes that is fantastic.

 

Now 2 years ago I was in the same boat, but now I don't think of her. It will fade. Yes I met someone else and now Im in the same boat. I got through the first one and will get through this one.

 

SO WILL YOU.

 

"I will keep trying" that's the attitude and over time you will get stronger.

 

I just got back from gym, didn't want to go but it needs to be done. You find what you need to do and before long it will get easier and easier.

 

Time does heal!

[Superchicken]

Never fear, Superchcken is here.

Now that you have a smile on your face, WHAT THE HELL !.

I really don't like anyone speaking or thinking about dying.

I get its depressing, I had it happen many times, and its been bad..

But as others have said, it gets easier. The problem is you're not letting go, and you keep stirring the past and bringing up times, events, and then feelings that went with them.

As a super hero Chicken, I need to try and get you to stop your train of though towards self harm, and put back a little happiness, or smile (Maybe lay an egg, ouch, I'm a man).

Continue down this new path, and reach out to friends and family to help you get over it.

It took some time for me, but I found someone much better in the long run.

 

 

Ted

[sorano]

I keep telling myself when I feel down again that, nothing will last. everything will eventually be ok. And when you hit rock bottom, there is only one way to go, and that is up.