Aintshowingmyname Posted November 29, 2016 Share Posted November 29, 2016 Few years back now I fell in love with a girl and at the time I didnt realise I was in love with her. I treated her like ****, Like our relationship was out of a movie. Our relationship never got further than friends because I was always too scared, we had a connection obviously, I thought about her 24/7 but I treated her like she was just another girl. I was always too emotiona, I could never handle my emotions. She ended it before anything even happened and I am almost certain it was because I was too emotional. When she ended it I never spoke to her again even when she made attempts to reach out to me, I did everything I could to just keep her out of my mind. I went to heaps of parties, I loved to get drunk and it worked. Eventually I felt like I was over her, I wasnt thinking about her much anymore. A few years passed and I matured over those years but lately All i can think about is my future, my love life, kids all that stuff. I started to really think about my actions the words that came out of my mouth but I also started to think about her again, How happy I once was when I got to speak to her, see her just have her in my life and now years later I find myself thinking about her all day every day again to the point where it hurts a lot. I want to be able to forget her but if given the choice I dont think I could forget her. Everytime I see her post on social media I just feel pain but I also think about how I would treat her now if given the chance. She moved overseas recently and she posted it on social media the day of her departure. I saw the post early in the morning and when I saw it all i felt was pain, I was upset the whole day. All I want is to see her be able to talk to her. I have always struggled with relationships, only ever been in one and it was purely based on sexual activities we never loved each other we just used each other. The only girl I want to be in a relationship with now is her. I dream of being able to grab her, kiss her, spend time with her, laugh with her, see her beautiful smile every day, bring her favourite food to her, hug her, hold her hand, be ther when she is upset, grab her from behind and kiss her neck, I want to build a life with her, wake up every morning and see her beatifu face and smile first thing, I want to be able to tell her every single day how much I am in lover with her. I am in love with a girl who I will probably never see or hear from again, A girl that will probably never love me back because of the way I had previously treated her, A girl that doesnt even know how much I love her and It hurts A lot. Link to post Share on other sites
oldbutcurious Posted November 30, 2016 Share Posted November 30, 2016 Could you show what you just wrote here to her? If you can, then, you MIGHT find closure, or some answers to what are bothering you. Link to post Share on other sites
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