Emotions and Feelings Fluctuate

[Concerned]

My emotions and feelings fluctuate enormously. I don't even know which feelings or which emotions are genuine and which ones are not. This morning i was feeling so good and "in love" with my girl friend, now I don't feel the same, and I feel like getting together with some other girl I had met a few weeks ago in a bar, whose number I still have in my wallet. I know in the evening I will meet her and probably change my mimd back again. Before going to bed, I will think of suicide probably, and it goes on and on and on. It's like there are 3 or 4 personalities trapped inside, and they just struggle with each other and try to overshadow the rest.

 

I am sick and tired of feeling one thing and then one hour later feeling the complete opposite. It affects the way I behave and the way I act. When I am down or feeling sick, I love my parents so much, when I fight with them a little, I already want to love alone and as if 100% sure that I have never loved them completely and will never will. But these feelings and emotions sometimes feel like they are true and genuine and they will not change, and I urge myself and try to convince that this is true whatever I am feeling, and I will stick to these believes, but unfortunately, they fade away, and the new ones start invading me. Am I going crazy? Is there a medication for this?? Is there a chemical imbalance, or it's just some things I deny and when I stop denying, true emotions come to surface. It is impossible to love/not love the same person. Maybe I do love my girl, but some times when I keep denying certaing things or think of her past, I decide to "not love" her. Or maybe I do not love her at all, and sometimes I deny the facts, and think that I do....

[Tammie]

Hi-

 

Medication alone will not work. You should see a therapist.

 

You're on the right track because you acknowledge that there IS something not right about your mood fluctuations.

 

You've taken the first step to healing yourself, so you can feel good about that.

 

If you feel suicidal, you should call a helpline STAT. Basically, you feel suicidal because you hurt so bad that death seems an answer. It's not the answer, and you don't have to feel alone.

 

Good luck

[Beesting]

This is a warning sign, because feeling emotional turmoil randomly and without attributable cause is a sign that your behavior does not coincide with your concept of identity.

 

Let me ask you something: Do you know who you are? Do you identify yourself through a list of characteristics or through personal experience? Do you have a philosophy of life? These are all important. We live in a society where self-reflection is limited to the time span of a commercial break.

 

I think, though, that what you are feeling is very, very common. Existential Angst, as Kierkegaard and Camus and Frankl would say.

 

Therapy is and isn't helpful and it really depends on the person. I am in couneling. I also counsel. And in my own experience, the benefit from counseling originates entirely in the patient, not the counselor. You change your behavior, the effort has to come from you.

 

In ancient times this would be your cue to go on a visionquest, as plains indians termed it. Aborigines in Australia call it "walkabout". Basically, soul-searching and spiritual inventory. You have the opportunity now to understand yourself more. How you go about that process is entirely up to you. You can opt for traditional and generic therapy or you can see for yourself what the world holds for you.

[namder]

Beesting has hit the nail right on the head here, everyone spends years at war with themselves, trying to come to terms with who they really are physically, physcologically, and spiritually.

 

I think you need to spend a bit of time on yourself, do things that you`ve always wanted to do, and show yourself you can do these things.

 

Always try to look on the bright side because its better than looking on the negative side.

 

You`re confused within yourself and that is why you cannot establish your real feelings for any length of time. And it is why you have confused feelings towards your girlfriend.

 

I think you may have a low self-esteem, and the only way to build this is to do things for yourself. (Exercise is something that invariabley makes us feel better about ourselves). Trying to help others as people do on this web-site makes us feel a bit better. There are millions of things you could try, the hard bit is just finding something(s) you enjoy.

 

Suicide is NEVER an option, because it is NOT the end.

[Ekul]

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