bruindds Posted December 6, 2016 Share Posted December 6, 2016 I am ten weeks post final break up now (2 year relationship). The month leading up to it was painful. We would talk about how we could be together and it would feel wonderful, then it was back to breaking up. Finally we just pushed each other to the point of no return. She emailed me a week after saying if I could find it in my heart to be with her that we would go to counseling and start over. I said yes I wanted to go to counseling and expressed that I thought we needed the counseling just to see if we could be together. No deal, I didn't give her enough reason to feel optimistic. I was so angry-- it was just one last time she pulled the rug out from underneath me. No contact has been good, and I have been grieving the loss of so many things. Found a great book that helps "Getting Past your Breakup", and this site has been so wonderful, realizing I am not alone in this. In the past couple weeks I started considering dating. I am not going to get in another relationship for a while. I know I need to get much stronger on my own before I am ready for a relationship. I made a profile on Plenty of Fish, and oh crap, she was already on there. I was not prepared for the flood of emotions I felt. And then I saw that she looked at my profile. I have deleted it from my phone, but damn, the pain and insecurity that has brought up. I find myself almost hoping to hear from her. I know we cant be together. I dont want that life back. I won't let her reject me again. Sigh, I know I am making progress, but yet sometimes I feel like I am right back to where I was 8 weeks ago- in pain and hating being alone. I tell myself that in a couple months its going to be better, and in a year I am going to be so grateful for how far I've come, but right now that feels like a mountain to climb. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
gorf Posted December 6, 2016 Share Posted December 6, 2016 I am ten weeks post final break up now In the past couple weeks I started considering dating. I am not going to get in another relationship for a while. I know I need to get much stronger on my own before I am ready for a relationship. I made a profile on Plenty of Fish Sigh, I know I am making progress, but yet sometimes I feel like I am right back to where I was 8 weeks ago- in pain and hating being alone. I tell myself that in a couple months its going to be better, and in a year I am going to be so grateful for how far I've come, but right now that feels like a mountain to climb. If you are still deating with feeling like you are still where you were 8 weeks ago, still a mountain, then take that POF profile down. She will be a fling or a rebound and you wont be able to heal with her around. You just need more time and counseling, thats all Link to post Share on other sites
umirano Posted December 7, 2016 Share Posted December 7, 2016 Oh yeah, I know what you are talking about. Before we broke up she wanted about a week to "think about things". When we talked it was always me who didn't make her confident enough in us. I practically sold my soul in these conversations. No avail. Oh well... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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