BreeCarns Posted July 19, 2005 Share Posted July 19, 2005 Hey all... I just wanted to tell you my story and see if I can get any advice. For the last year i've been fairly close friends with this guy named George. He's an awsome guy, and we have a lot in common, but things got bad. Around Christmas (since we are no longer living near each other) he said he would visit. He couldn't....I got upset....we fought....and things started to change, to something very bad. December, January, and February we hardly spoke for weeks at a time. He's a gamer, and he's kinda turned off by relationships (he just doesn't care for them). To be honest, i screwed up big time. (keep in mind this happened before he was gonna visit). I had just turned 17-- and i played a few games with him (and no, not video games ) He gave me everything and I had the power to hurt him....and I did. And i don't even know why i did it....i just wanted attention. I really do care about him now, but i just didn't like him much back then. He was one of the farthest things from my mind when it came to "I think of you as more than a friend" at the time We are pretty young, too. He's 18 and i am turning 18 in a few months. I know what i did was horrible, and i've been telling him recently that "I Don't want to be like that!" It feels like no matter what I do, he'll never think of me different. I really don't want an impression like this one. And i would do ANYTHING to get him to think of me differently... i'm not that person anymore. To add to the story, back in november he said "i love you" over the phone but I didn't say it back.... i wrote out to him once though...never have gotten to say it to him. I'm really confused about my feelings. I don't know if i'm "In love" with him, but I get so happy being with him...and i always return it with a hug. Don't really know what to think of things now. Last night i talked to him about "things"....he sounded kinda jealous because he TOLD me he noticed even that I was just standing closer to other guys than him? I wasn't trying to. and it didn't make sense -- He says he doesn't like me like that anymore. And he said we had nothing, and we should forget about last year -- things got that horrible....Rejection was my worst fear, and he made me face it. One of the things that caused such a bad impression was that i was sorta scared of losing him and breaking up, and it showed...I acted like i owned him sometimes. (we dated for a short while in november). But here's the thing....after he said "we had nothing" he said he really did want to be my friend, and when I said "I don't want to own you" he said "prove it". The convo pretty much got to the point where I said i had to go...and he said 'cya when you'll let me'. I'm so confused to what i am supposed to do....hearing those things hurt SO badly, like last year wasn't enough problems....anyway, I hope my grammar isn't that bad...I don't really have any friends to turn to about this kinda stuff....and i was just looking for some support -Bree Link to post Share on other sites
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