Forgetting what went on after moving on

[John83]

3 years ago me and girlfriend separated (had no choice her doing) and left me with the kids 95% of the time which I later found out from the kids she was running around with someone else after giving up our family home and moving house, it was only when after I found out I told her my kids were not staying under the same roof as some lowlife scrotum she just met and seen a solicitor to start proceedings for custody that she begged me to come back which I eventually did more so for kids sake (thread is on here somewhere).

 

Since then it was up and down for a while and we split again after a year and again she asked me back after a few weeks, this time nobody else was involved.

 

Now we get on better than ever, she blames what she done initially on her depression returning which she now has had diagnosed again takes medication for. She is great to me now,

 

only trouble is I cannot forget what went on and get it out of my head, it is there all day every day, I fall asleep at night turning it over and it's ruining the chance to be happy with her again.

 

Just the other day she told me he was in his 50s Which ****ing disgusts me (she was 33 at time) she told me this to back up her claim that the sex was poor and infrequent but now I'm just absolutley disgusted, she says she is ashamed and disgusted and would never even consider such a vulgar act had she not been at the lowest point of her life with her depression and badly wants to forget that time, I tell her I wish it was so easy for me to forget.

 

Sometimes I feel like giving up but other than this issue life is perfect and she truly loves me I know that and is great to me and was a massive help when lost my dad to cancer in 2015 I couldn't have carried on without her but fear it will test my sanity

Edited January 29, 2017 by John83

[aileD]

That's an issues with you. Not her. Go to therapy for you.