Author Shehulk Posted February 24, 2017 Author Share Posted February 24, 2017 i went to see a psychic/tarot cart reader, and he told me to drop a small gift at his place like a few beer or something. i wont do it but i cant get the idea out of my mind that it might be my only chance to have him backkk.... ahhhhh this is so hard i hate it, Link to post Share on other sites
oldshirt Posted February 25, 2017 Share Posted February 25, 2017 i went to see a psychic/tarot cart reader, and he told me to drop a small gift at his place like a few beer or something. i wont do it but i cant get the idea out of my mind that it might be my only chance to have him backkk.... ahhhhh this is so hard i hate it, Let's not get silly. That is just plain dumb. If you want a psychic to improve your lot in life, ask them for the winning lottery number. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Miss Spider Posted February 25, 2017 Share Posted February 25, 2017 (edited) I feel your pain. So much. My ex is seeing someone new too/fallen for someone new. It hurts like hell and you feel so discarded. You feel like you're worthless because they want someone else not you now ...that's not true. Our guys are over us though, over it,though, feelings gone. Holding on, trying to understand why, trying to drag them back, hoping, it all only does more damage. I Whatever you do do not break NC. DO NOT DROP BEER off at his place. That will not make him feel for you. I the mistake of breaking NC and we spent all night talking. It just made matters worse and made me ****** They have moved on. If he doesn't see your worth he's blind Edited February 25, 2017 by Cookiesandough 2 Link to post Share on other sites
stillafool Posted February 25, 2017 Share Posted February 25, 2017 i went to see a psychic/tarot cart reader, and he told me to drop a small gift at his place like a few beer or something. i wont do it but i cant get the idea out of my mind that it might be my only chance to have him backkk.... ahhhhh this is so hard i hate it, That was a waste of money. You should have done something to pamper yourself. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
stillafool Posted February 25, 2017 Share Posted February 25, 2017 i went to see a psychic/tarot cart reader, and he told me to drop a small gift at his place like a few beer or something. i wont do it but i cant get the idea out of my mind that it might be my only chance to have him backkk.... ahhhhh this is so hard i hate it, Do not drop anything off at his place. Suppose the other girl is over there? Then how would you fee? Stay NC get out of the house and do something to enhance your life. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
seekingpeaceinlove Posted February 25, 2017 Share Posted February 25, 2017 (edited) Shehulk, I'm so sorry that you're in so much pain. Everything you are feeling is 100% normal and just proves how much you cared and loved someone. Keep telling yourself that you don't have a choice but to move on. Your ex broke up with you and explicitly stated that he does not want to be with you right now. There's nothing you can do to change that. The more you try, the more you will push him away and eventually be turned off you completely. I went though the same thing when my bf broke up with me. It was pure hell. I woke up with a heaviness on my chest and felt like I was suffocating in pain. A few times, I drove by his house to see if his light was on and the one time it wasn't I immediately assumed he was with someone else and freaked out. I called my best friend and she calmed me down and said something that stuck with me to this day: Don't be that crazy ex. I never drove by again after that. The pain will go away in time. In the meanwhile, you have to focus on deleting him out of your life as much as possible. I filed away cards, photos, etc of my ex immediately and erased his number. I figured that the ball was in court and he would have to contact me if he wanted another chance. It was tortue, yes, but it had to be done. I survived day to day and forced myself to go outside, go to the gym and meet up with my friends and family bc sitting around meant thinking about him and what went wrong in the relationship. One more thing: You have no idea what he's really up to. The social media you found on him doesn't prove he's seeing anyone. He may or may not be...but you have to focus on the fact that IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE. You two are broken up right now and all that matters is that you heal. Focus on getting by day to day and I promise that IT WILL GET BETTER. It always does. My ex reached out to me about 7 months later to reconcile. And I was in an incredible place by that point. I had became a better version of myself and was doing great without him. BIG HUGS. You WILL get through this. Edited February 25, 2017 by seekingpeaceinlove 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shehulk Posted February 25, 2017 Author Share Posted February 25, 2017 (edited) so I was walking around in my appartment and looked outside cuz a i hearing voices, I'm almost positive i saw him drop a guy in my building and they said 'ok well see you monday' i didnt saw the driver's face but it was the exact same car and the driver war wearing a ring in the same finger he does... how can he drop someone in my building, where he spent MANY nights over the past 1.5 years and not care i dont get it on top of that, my parents are getting mad at me, i call them alot when im sad and my dad yelled at me saying its not normal that im still crying because its been a month now. And most of my friend barely text me back or take forever to txt back. I feel like i've lost the only person that mattered in my life Edited February 25, 2017 by Shehulk Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shehulk Posted February 26, 2017 Author Share Posted February 26, 2017 anyone ? i feel so miserable everytime i hear the building door open or a car driving by i have a mini panick attack.... i just cant do it anymore its hell. i know he doesnt owe me anything but he could at least have the decency to not drop off someone in my appartment building right ? he las literaly parked under my window, its a small building maybe 20 units and he didnt knew anyone in it before. Link to post Share on other sites
elaine567 Posted February 26, 2017 Share Posted February 26, 2017 anyone ? i feel so miserable everytime i hear the building door open or a car driving by i have a mini panick attack.... i just cant do it anymore its hell. i know he doesnt owe me anything but he could at least have the decency to not drop off someone in my appartment building right ? he las literaly parked under my window, its a small building maybe 20 units and he didnt knew anyone in it before. That is utterly ridiculous and madness talking. He is now a free agent. He can date the girl in the next apartment to you, if he wants. YOU have no say in his life any longer. He can give a lift to anyone he likes, he can drop them off every day too. There is no law to say he cannot. Break ups are hard, very very hard but you have to start thinking rationally. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
stillafool Posted February 26, 2017 Share Posted February 26, 2017 on top of that, my parents are getting mad at me, i call them alot when im sad and my dad yelled at me saying its not normal that im still crying because its been a month now. And most of my friend barely text me back or take forever to txt back. I feel like i've lost the only person that mattered in my life As long as you continue to wallow in your own misery you will continue to feel miserable. He has moved on and I would suggest you get up, get out and move forward with your life. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shehulk Posted February 27, 2017 Author Share Posted February 27, 2017 I get panick attack everytime i hear a car driving by or the main door open... this is ****ing hell, i treated him with respect even after he broke up with me.... i dont deserve that much pain Link to post Share on other sites
keiji Posted February 27, 2017 Share Posted February 27, 2017 I get panick attack everytime i hear a car driving by or the main door open... this is ****ing hell, i treated him with respect even after he broke up with me.... i dont deserve that much pain You don't, shehulk, but you need to carry on with your life just like he's carrying on with his. You must accept that he can do whatever he wants and I honestly see no disrespect in him driving someone to your building. If you don't calm a bit you'll end up putting yourself in an awkward situation: sending messages you'll later regret, confronting him about stuff you're not entitled to, etc. All it will bring to you is pain and embarrassment. Right now you're overly sensitive to everything he does, but that doesn't mean his actions are wrong. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Redhead14 Posted February 27, 2017 Share Posted February 27, 2017 I get panick attack everytime i hear a car driving by or the main door open... this is ****ing hell, i treated him with respect even after he broke up with me.... i dont deserve that much pain i dont deserve that much pain -- You are creating that pain for yourself . . . stop it. You have crossed into the "crazy ex" territory. Get on with YOUR life. I'd like to be a little more nurturing here, but at this point, you need a kick in the butt. Get a grip. Some day when you go back and re-read all this, you'll be kicking your own butt. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shehulk Posted March 4, 2017 Author Share Posted March 4, 2017 (edited) life update, i went to see a doctor and he gave me anti anxiety pills, antidepressant (that are also use for panic disorder) and sleeping pills, ive been crying a lot less since i've been using those pills and tmr night i will be going to my parents house (3h away) for the week, really looking forward to that. Yesterday he dropped the girl at my building again, i was at the window and he looked directly at me, i could feel his eyes on me. it was painfull but thanks to the meds i didnt had a panick attack. I know he was expecting a call (i called him after i saw him a tinder etc) but i didnt contact him after i saw him Im starting to think that the girl is a client of his who happens to not have a car (he drove home a couple clients before) just because of the timing and i've always sae him dropping her off but he never came inside and i never saw his car in the parking (cuz yes i've been going out early morning and late night to check the parking) so my question is, if he really wanna talk to me nothing will keep him from txting or calling me right ? the last thing i said to him was that if in a couple of week he felt like talking to me that he should do it. today is day 18 of NC. i dont feel the urge to txt him anymore because i feel like he is disrespecting me by dropping this girl in my building (i know he's not but its really upseting me). Edited March 4, 2017 by Shehulk 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Zahara Posted March 4, 2017 Share Posted March 4, 2017 Yes, if he wanted to communicate then he would reach out. He's not disrespecting you. He's free to move on with his life whichever way he chooses to even if it means dropping off a woman at a building you both live in. And don't let that be the reason you don't want to text him. You don't want to text him because you want to move on as well. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shehulk Posted June 12, 2017 Author Share Posted June 12, 2017 Alright so i messed up. after almost 4 months of NC (and it includes not stalking his fb and instagram pages) i went on his instagram page. He looked at my story on instagram so i clicked on his name for the first time in almost 4 months, on one of his pictures i saw that i girl commented heart face so i went on her instagram only to find out that they are dating. I honestly taught i was over the break up, i am not. I've been crying since saturday afternoon, every time i close my eyes i see them together, its driving me insane...... i dont know what to do it feels even worse than the breakup. the girls is a 21 year old nail tech..... (hes 28), i know we're not together animore and he can do whatever he wants with his life but its breaks my heart that he broke up with me because he needed to be alone and figure out his work situation then 2 months after (they started dating in april) he goes after a girl even younger than me... Link to post Share on other sites
Zahara Posted June 12, 2017 Share Posted June 12, 2017 Alright so i messed up. after almost 4 months of NC (and it includes not stalking his fb and instagram pages) i went on his instagram page. He looked at my story on instagram so i clicked on his name for the first time in almost 4 months, on one of his pictures i saw that i girl commented heart face so i went on her instagram only to find out that they are dating. I honestly taught i was over the break up, i am not. I've been crying since saturday afternoon, every time i close my eyes i see them together, its driving me insane...... i dont know what to do it feels even worse than the breakup. the girls is a 21 year old nail tech..... (hes 28), i know we're not together animore and he can do whatever he wants with his life but its breaks my heart that he broke up with me because he needed to be alone and figure out his work situation then 2 months after (they started dating in april) he goes after a girl even younger than me... Social media is the devil. You made the choice to check his Instagram and got a big gut punch. Use that to push forward. Now you can accept that it is all finally over and there's nothing more to do but to focus on yourself and move on. Maybe at the time he did want to focus on other things. Maybe he met her by chance and things changed. You don't know the full story. So stop speculating. Regardless of the reasons, the ending was inevitable on his part. Try to accept that and move forward. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
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