Had enough

[MonicaD]

Well my H is actually on the way with his son to the lake and felt it necessary to call my cell to remind me he was going. I thunk I have finally just shut down. His ex picked up their son at camp and asked me if I was going to the lake. All I could do was shake my head because I so wanted to say we were told we couldn't go. And then ask her what really happened between them. To here my H talk his ex was crazy. But she seems very normal to me.I have meet her several times. She seems pretty normal. She is a high school teacher. Seems pretty solid, but you never here him say anything other than he was a victim and how wacked she still is. But I didn't. I can't see how he thinks his behavior is normal. But he does. How last night he can be all over me and today he can just go to the lake and not reconsider his decision. I think I was waiting to see if he re thought it and actually included us in his family weekend. But he didn't. I guess I have to see the writting on the wall and just see that for my sake and my sons this has to end. I don't want to live my life like this and even if he comes around this time, next month he will probably do it again. I actually was online looking at behavioral disorders and depression websites. How his family can assure him this is normal behavior is beyond me. I just hope I stay strong. I haven't answered his calls and I don't plan to. If he comes by when he gets home I am gonna be strong and tell him to get the rest of the stuff he has here of his sons and leave. That I can't take anymore. That I wish him well, hope he does go and get help, but that I have to get off this roller coaster before it drives me over the edge. He will just continue to string me along and make me feel bad if I allow it! Right?

[fudgit]

GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!!! You have to take care of yourself and stay strong so that you can take care of your son. You're making a positive decision for the both of you. You should be proud of yourself!