Moving forward or not moving at all?

[MrPlop]

I'm finding it quite challenging to be honest guys... I never really posted my story here, not that it's anything extraordinary, but around this date, about a year ago I was told I was not wanted anymore, that I was not loved anymore. She was far from perfect, but at my mid 20's she was my first love & serious relationship, yeah I loved her, and yeah she taught me a lot. What it meant to be a responsible adult, what it meant to care for someone else and be selfless... I did go the extra mile for her, I had two jobs, took her places she never been to, helped her with school, doctors (more than once I stayed sleeping at the ER when she was sick), even did her laundry and polished her shoes to work, I became a pretty good looking doormat. Yet I was lied to, deceived, even tried to mess with my best friend (at least he has integrity as a person did not to follow her advances). I can at least take pride in not begging her to stay, I guess deep inside I always knew we were not meant to be together. It's just the lies, the "since you're working til late, I'm spending my bday with some friends..." I had my flaws and I wasn't the greatest bf, but what kind of person would cheat on her birthday and put up a fake smile the next day?

 

It's been a year like I already mentioned. There had been quite a few positive things. I went back to the gym, got a better job and I've never been financially better, I'm deeply invested in my career as well, I reconnected with family & friends. However somewhere in there I have those tough days, you know, where you just need to feel loved, heck I still haven't been able to get rid of some of the things she left behind when she moved out...

 

I just feel it's really not fair, she's still happy and I'm still broken.

 

Sorry for the longer than expected story, but I've been holding it for a while now and I needed to let it out.

[adreamwithinadream]

Break ups are hard and sometimes it takes time to get over someone completely. It sounds like she was a person who likes to use people and cared more about herself and it's a good thing you got out of the relationship when you did . It's always the person who treated the other person bably that gets over things faster because they don't care that they hurt someone. You don't need someone in your life that didn't care about you as much as you cared about them. You are doing really great for yourself just stay positive!

[sorano]

Hang in there. Its been 14 months for me. Although I am doing way better, happier and can be alone without feeling sad, I still get angry. I get angry on how I was treated. Yes, we have to learn to let go. But I will let time do its thing and tell me when its ready. I get angry thinking about how she lied to me, led me on, told me everything a man wanted to hear. Then one day, she left.

 

I am sure she will get married. Build that big house she always wanted, go on vacation, etc. But deep down inside, I know she will never be happy. No matter what. she just won't be happy. I said it time and time again. I will not wish her harm, but, I will never wish her well.

[Jopes]

I think there are a lot of messed up people in this world and a lot of things that are false. I think the only way is to keep your life as positive as possible and some people are best not in your life. I don't think he could have gotten away with all of this on his own. He knew who to ask for help, the people I associate with would never have even said yes.

[MrPlop]

Thank you guys, I've been having rough, I guess in the end it comes down to thinking less about her and more about me.

[MrPlop]

Hey LS, haven't posted in a while. I'm back. Well, I have finally received the news I've been mentally preparing for a long time. I found out through friends that my ex gf is pregnant... Now, I couldn't help but to feel a little depressed, down and extremely nostalgic at first, but no breakdown or in tears moment. It's weird, I don't get it... something tells me I should be in bed right now, but very deep down inside I just don't care... perhaps I'm still in shock. But I'm somewhat glad it's not me.... maybe, just maybe I have conquered my demon. Could it be that I'm just busy with school and work, but although I'm lonely throughout most of my day I'm grateful for where I'm at.

 

One of her friends in our circle has shown some interest in me, but like her I don't feel this chick's past is the brightest, so I have very low expectations of further development.