Guilt pulling me down, how to move ahead? [Update:Divorced and further contact after]

[Deepremorse5]

You are right. He has moved away both mentally and emotionally way too far for me to reach him. I have taken up more responsibilities at work to keep me engaged and distracted. I am having these flashbulb memories of us that keep bugging me. But I still want to fight for our relationship till the end. I have nothing more to lose. I have lost everything I had.

Edited November 24, 2018 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
Redacted quote ~ V

[Mind-Chants]

I think this is his way of getting back at you. "Being there for you but still not there for you".

[Deepremorse5]

This might be my last post here. He has started dating someone @ NYC. Last 2 to 3 months, he was kind of dropping hints all along (I mentioned in one of the previous posts about him dating someone) and finally I saw in facebook. He was tagged in a photo with a girl and she called him her soulmate. Asked him directly, he confirmed. That makes sense now as last time we became intimate was around July. After that he has visited many times but we only met once or twice, no sex. I also felt he was trying to avoid me.

I am sad but proud of myself for how I took the news. It's been a week since he confirmed about her. I have cried a little but mostly I have carried myself quite well. I hope I will move on. Trying to focus on my work. Also I am planning to adopt a baby girl from an orphanage. I always wanted to be a mother. We had plans for one biological kid and one adoption. I felt this is the right time for me to adopt and raise a child. I hope everything will work out for me.

 

Thanks to all who have been part of my journey here.

[Just a Guy]

Hi Deep Remorse, all the very best to you for the future. I am sure you, too, will find someone to call your own. I would think that you would be very eligible given your position in your father's company plus the fact that you are unencumbered. Divorces in India are not the dreaded death knell for second chances as they used to be a generation ago. Warm Regards.