lost a huge love..

[moshefin]

Hi.. i'll keep my story short as i can..

i'm divorced, and after 2 years alone i met a woman who's divoreced twice..

We met at a mutual after-school activity of our children..

i'm a shy guy and never been to a 'date' before her..

when we met it was an instant magic!

At our 3rd date we were in-love like never before..

with time our intimacy and deep conection became legendery.. we used to sit on a bench for 3 hours cuddeling in silence, talk with our eyes..

this woman has been through hell.. one husband abandond her and another one hit her anf broke her face..

at some point she started telling me she never felt anything like she feels towards me before! We were a blast, pure love and an neverending passion..

we both smashed through each other's walls and knew we were "the one" for each other.. she allways said her love for me "is stressing" as she is not used to being treated with so much love and compassion..

i wrote her songs, brought her a new flower every week.. cooked for her and put it in boxes with love notes so she has good food all week at work.. she said every time that no one ever gave her so much love.. that men like me didn't exist.. and she gave me the whole world in return..

when we started talking about moving in together she was exited and can't wait, until one day she got scared and told me we should wait.. i accepted, but she noticed i was a bit worried..

in the next 3 weeks for the first time ever we were not the same.. i got clingy and pushed towards her, while she kept going backwards..

we still hed our love and passion intact, but we both were feeling awaful..

than she decided to end it all.. we were apart for 3 days and than i came to her house and our love was so huge, we bursted in lust and spent the night together..

for another month we were ok, but i couldn't let go of the feeling she's still backing off of me..

we spent a great night together one night, another great day after, and than she told me she can't go on..

she said she loves me with all her heart, that i'm the love of her life, but her old wound are too powerfull to resist and her head decided i'm not 'right' for her anymore..

i was devestated.. in the next two weeks when we met i kissed her and she kissed back with passion and than broke it off..

eventually she told me to stop bacause she still loves me deeply but she has to let that love go away..

two months of hell went through my life.. every aspect of my life crashed and burned to the ground.. i contacted her all the time..

some times she was nice and loving.. other times cold as ice..

a week ago we talked.. she said she has moved on and in no way she's denaying what a great love i was for her..

she says we can be friends but won't get back ever again..

we met and it ruined me.. so i told her i can't be her friend at the moment and we huged.. she even cryed a little..

i still wasn't able to let her go and texted her sometimes.. one time she was nice, the other she was rude and told me to go away..

i ended thing with a big messege saying she is not the person she was, and i can't and won't ever understand the way she acts..

but i wish her all the best in the world and will allways love her.. and maybe one day we will meet and build a friendship..

she responded with on sentence saying we hace to go nc and this is just hurting us both.. every thing i wrote her from that point was not responded and i stoped..

one thing makes me misreable.. will she remember us like we used to be? Will all the obssessivness at the end and bad memories fade away?

Will i be mentioned to her next partner as a crazy ******* or as the love of her life?

She seems so cold.. i don't believe a huge love like this can be switched off in two months, but she put it behind a huge wall now.. i actually feel she deleted me and erased everything we had..

Will time put my memory in the place i truley belong in her heart?

Will time and future experience may give us another chance?

[d0nnivain]

This lady enjoys falling in love but she has no stomach for what it takes to maintain a relationship.

 

 

You won't be mentioned to her next partner at all. You will be relegated to some guy she used to date.