InAFog Posted August 18, 2017 Share Posted August 18, 2017 My ex of 3 mo., 3 year relationship called seversl times tonight, ignored calls. Sent a curt text of "what". He sent spiel of how he wanted to know my thoughts of what's happening in the world, we promised to be friends. I'm a forced dumper. Drinking. Rages, and the like. He didn't know that I knew he was seeing someone in LESS THAN 24 hours. So yeah..... Was a cheater. Anyway, I responded, with all my anger. I don't think I've ever been so MEAN. But it felt GOOD. It was pretty much a "go ahead" with your new relationship. He even said he needed to hear it. There will never be anymore contact i'm sure. But I still feel like ****. I wanted so bad to HURT him. I don't want to be like that. It's not who I am or want to be. Rage & vindictiveness feelings? Dealing with? Link to post Share on other sites
Author InAFog Posted August 18, 2017 Author Share Posted August 18, 2017 Crap, now I feel like I should send an apology. I'm so mad, and hurt, and I did feel & mean the things I said. But it was very harsh. Apologize, or just let it go & stay NC?? Link to post Share on other sites
Author InAFog Posted August 18, 2017 Author Share Posted August 18, 2017 Not that anyone gives an F. But I did send a "kindof" apology. That I did mean what I said, but was way too harsh in the delivery. I feel a bit free. I said.what I had been dying to say. Vague regret. Apology-ish. I feel right now vindicated for my feelings & less guilt of being a total bitch. I feel good, free. Hope it lasts.... See ya tomorrow morning.. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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