It is not often you meet somebody who makes you feel this way...

[wanderluster]

I wasn't even looking, but you found a way to dig into my soul.

My first virtual romance, I never knew you could fall so madly for somebody you've never even met before.

Just another shooting star, if you blink you miss it.

It was over so fast.

But I can't seem to shake you...

It is unbearably frustrating.

 

You were meant to catch that flight today, close in on that 4000miles of earth and ocean keeping us apart. All those memories we were yet to make together... replay in my head... and burn to the ground.

 

Did you catch the flight? Or am I just a hopeful romantic yearning for the piece of my soul you've stolen to be returned?

 

How magical it was, how magical you made it feel to be connected through the electronic pulses of technology.

 

It lost its heartbeat when you spoke your words of venom, funny how texting can both entangle two minds, but also cut the very same cord.

You read everything wrong.

Maybe you wanted to read it that way.

"When people show you who they really are... believe them"

Your true colours were revealed as toxic energy.

So why do I still want you to paint me with them?

 

Logic tells me you're no good for me...

but since when did feelings ever care for logic?

 

Get out of my head...

Edited August 22, 2017 by wanderluster

[Michelle ma Belle]

Beautifully written about the darker side of some LDR.

[wanderluster]

Thanks Michelle.. It's nice to just have somewhere to vent.

I know my pain will pass quicker than a lot of yours on here.

 

I just needed a place to disect it.

 

I do wonder...

Does he even feel it too?

[SunnyWeather]

This isn't meant to disregard the intensity of what you experienced/are experiencing, but if I'm reading the subtleties correctly, it sounds like you dodged a bullet.

 

Mourn for what could've been --for a bit-- then move on and consider not getting entangled again with someone who lives so far away. Texting as a primary mode of communication has too many mine/mind fields to navigate, even with established relationships.

 

(((hugs)))

Edited August 22, 2017 by SunnyWeather

[wanderluster]

Thanks sunnyweather! You are absolutely right! I have dodged a bullet!

 

That is why I have chosen to go no contact...

He was immature and said some really hurtful things about me for no reason.

Today was just especially hard because he was meant to fly to come see me.

I can't help wondering if he took the flight...

I want to just message him to ask, but to what avail?

Classic moth to a flame...

 

I'll get over him...

[SunnyWeather]

Thanks sunnyweather! You are absolutely right! I have dodged a bullet!

 

That is why I have chosen to go no contact...

He was immature and said some really hurtful things about me for no reason.

Today was just especially hard because he was meant to fly to come see me.

I can't help wondering if he took the flight...

I want to just message him to ask, but to what avail?

Classic moth to a flame...

 

I'll get over him...

 

 

I hope you can find the strength and fortitude to NOT contact him. By doing so you are giving him an implicit OK to treat you poorly, perhaps even abusively (can't tell from your post but it def sounds bad).

 

Be strong, hold your head high, and live true to your ideals.

[wanderluster]

Sunnyweather!

You are an absolute legend..

Thinking about it.. he's not even hot..

My mind was playing tricks on me.

HAHA!

[dodoli]

I don't even know why am i writing this. I guess just venting. My 7 years long ldr ended on 21 august. 3500km. Funny thing i had ticket to go see her 22 of august. She said don't come one day before. Trying to get better day by day. Wish you all luck.