A reminiscence of a much simpler time

[nospam99]

Warning: TL approaching. DR may be indicated.

 

I've been here on loveshack a bit over a month. I've found the folks around this 'place' to be friendly. I first wandered in because I had recently had an experience that changed my perspective on my current 'love life' and I wanted to write about that experience. Sometimes 'you' just want to think someone else is interested enough to be listening. Anyway, as I've continued to think about my 'love life' I have felt the 'need' to share another story. This is not the typical asking for advice thread but I hope it is nevertheless sufficiently on topic.

 

I'm pretty sure this really happened. However as long ago as it was if it did, this may very well have been a dream. Someday I may be willing to risk offense or embarassment enough to ask the other participants if they remember.

 

Freshman or sophomore year of high school. I would have been somewhere between an old 14 and a young 16. I was the manager of the freshman or JV basketball team. L and D were cheerleaders. One night after a game they approached me alone in a corridor of the school, got on either side of me, and kissed me on either cheek. (NO, not those cheeks - we were rather young and I was innocent.) I'm pretty sure it was my 'first kiss' and my second kiss, one quite a bit more serious, would not occur until college.

 

What were they up to? They were two of the prettiest girls in the class. I was a skinny, nerdy kid. (Still nerdy, but skinny goes back to a previous millenium.) High school kids can be terribly cruel. Occam's razor would suggest that they were power-tripping on their high social status to tease the nerd. But it could also have been curiousity about how I would react or something as simply sweet as seeing if they could draw me out of a shell of shyness.

 

That was it. My lack of confidence and my situation in my parents' home precluded any attempts at dating during high school. Way more than 40 years have gone by. In recent years I've met both L and D at high school reunions and had friendly conversations with them. In fact a longer chat with L was a major factor in my recent epiphany. But during that chat and for many days after I had not yet remembered that this grandmother had been the girl who gave me my first kiss. Perhaps some day I'll take the risk and ask her or D if they remember and what they were up to. Time doing what it does, I suspect that even if they remember their remembered intentions will be kinder than they likely were 'way back when'. IMHO that is one of the many affects of maturity.

Edited September 11, 2017 by nospam99

[bummer]

In your experience, are people generally good-natured or evil?

 

If you were to scope a judgment out on all of humanity from your vantage point, are people motivated by fear, hate, envy, greed, and jealousy? Or love, kindness, inquisitiveness, joy, and merriment?

[road]

Why does it matter?

 

Because you never let go of what

you perceived as a lost opportunity.

 

And, a lost opportunity with one of

the prettiest girls in high school.

 

So your mind plays with possible what

if's.

 

All you can do is the next time you

see this lady is to ask her 40 years

later why did she do that. Then

update us.

[nospam99]

Why does it matter?

 

Because you never let go of what

you perceived as a lost opportunity.

 

And, a lost opportunity with one of

the prettiest girls in high school.

 

So your mind plays with possible what

if's.

 

All you can do is the next time you

see this lady is to ask her 40 years

later why did she do that. Then

update us.

 

Not a lost opportunity because in high school I was not at a point in my life where I was going to do any dating. Today it's significant to me as a bittersweet memory of an early event that hinted that 'just maybe' females/girls/women were not always going to ignore me. I could PM either of the 'girls' on FB to ask. But I'm not (yet) curious enough to take the chance that they even remember. While it was significant to me because of who and where in life I was, I doubt that they remember every mid-teen flirtateous action in their long-ago pasts.

[nospam99]

In your experience, are people generally good-natured or evil?

 

If you were to scope a judgment out on all of humanity from your vantage point, are people motivated by fear, hate, envy, greed, and jealousy? Or love, kindness, inquisitiveness, joy, and merriment?

 

Since I'm the OP, I guess this is aimed at me though I'm not sure how on-topic it is. Anyway, there are evil people. I try to avoid them. So in my day-to-day interactions, the people I deal with are good-natured. People are motivated by all the factors you listed, often in various combinations. I'm guessing that your question was prompted by my mention of the cruelty of teenagers. That was true when I was a teen and still true when my children were teens. With respect to my memory, many of my classmates were a--holes and abused the emotions of others back in high school. As adults, now seniors, those of us who have kept in touch at least behave with respect and friendship towards each other.

[road]

Not a lost opportunity because in high school I was not at a point in my life where I was going to do any dating. Today it's significant to me as a bittersweet memory of an early event that hinted that 'just maybe' females/girls/women were not always going to ignore me. I could PM either of the 'girls' on FB to ask. But I'm not (yet) curious enough to take the chance that they even remember. While it was significant to me because of who and where in life I was, I doubt that they remember every mid-teen flirtateous action in their long-ago pasts.

 

Yes you were not ready to date.

 

Though you are not being honest now about back then.

Normal to of wished things would of developed back

then. And, now to feel a little bit of what if now.

 

Back then you felt you had no shot so you just enjoyed

the moment. So much so that you have never

forgotten that moment.