Scorpio Woman Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 (edited) I am a full blown lesbian (27) my boss is 52. I am single my boss is married to a man. I'm not sure why I have these immense feelings for her. I am black she is white. I mean we are complete opposites. For some odd reason i sense that she is attracted to me I don't think I'm delusional but maybe I am. I recently just suffered a lost....well 2 lost and maybe im just vulnerable right now? Does her being married bother me...? not at all, does her being my boss bother me....not at all...these things actually turn me on. Do i want to be with her....no. Do i want to take her to the back and pull down those panties........DEFINITELY. I'm "trying" my best(to have sex with her) I mean to hide how ive been feeling but its like the tension is so real. I cant tell if im in this alone or not. Idk just have to get this off my chest. I know shes my boss and could get hit with a sexual harassment charge blah blah .BUT...Could it be possible shes interested? She definitely gazes into my eyes If I'm delusional about anything it's not this. Bt i get mixed signals. She's eager to tell me about herself when i ask but i know that's normal, she never brings up her husband. She expressed how sexy she didn't feel (not purposely). So FIRST I sent her a small text that READ... Hi (NAME)hope you have an easy Sunday with an audio file attached (Carl Carlton-Bad Mama JAMA) I know cheesy. Never received a response but she looked completely different the next day ....she was colorful, bright and beautiful. So I decided to push it a little further and I brought her Strawberry Cheesecake from the cheesecake factory she didn't eat it though claimed she forgot it... I KNOW YEA RIGHT. YES I ate it, that cheesecake was $12. I recently slipped a note in her car door that read YOU'RE TRULY INCREDIBLE TO: Italian Goddess. Well yeah shes Italian and white lol. She didnt reprimand me for it but she never said anything about it either. I KNOW I KNOW FALL BACK RIGHT! Which i plan to honestly. Bt damn i mean can i just tell her to come to back i can have sex with her and it just be over or just leave it? P.S Id honestly love to cuddle with her too. Edited January 27, 2018 by a LoveShack.org Moderator language for dating forum Link to post Share on other sites
CC12 Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 (edited) Well, I commend you for trying. But I don't think you'll get anywhere with her. You've been pretty forward, and you've given her several opportunities to reciprocate or to let you know if she's interested, and she's only ignored them and pretended they don't exist. She's not interested. That is not a mixed signal, no matter how you interpret it when she looks in your direction. To be honest, if you were a guy telling us stuff like, "Bt damn i mean can i just tell her to come to back i can have sex with her and it just be over" I'd tell you to stop perving out on your boss and to be more respectful and professional. Edited January 27, 2018 by a LoveShack.org Moderator 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Maggie4 Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 What you've done so far may not be interpreted as sexual advances. Appears like kissing up to the boss. Does your boss know you're lesbian? 2 Link to post Share on other sites
smackie9 Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 get help. Seriously, your imagination is making you interpret simple interaction as something deeply sexual.....it's all in your head! If you don't get some therapy or quit your job or find another woman to chase, you will be gettin yer self into some serious legal trouble. Stop perving on your boss....it's not right. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Lorenza Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 Fantasies should remain fantasies. This woman isn't even a lesbian. If you remain in this delusional state you might find yourself crossing the line of what's appropriate for a workplace. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Sara1989 Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 get help. Seriously, your imagination is making you interpret simple interaction as something deeply sexual.....it's all in your head! If you don't get some therapy or quit your job or find another woman to chase, you will be gettin yer self into some serious legal trouble. Stop perving on your boss....it's not right. Agree, if this is a real situation then you are pushing the line off harassment in a work place. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
justwhoiam Posted January 27, 2018 Share Posted January 27, 2018 I don't think I'm delusional but maybe I am. You want to have sex with her for the wrong reasons. It's just lust that - on top of everything - would seriously get you in trouble. Reading between the lines, I sense that you have low self-esteem for wanting a woman who can't be with you (married), as if you were scared of having a relationship of your own. Have you even thought of that? Or is it that you don't know how/where to find lesbians in your area? If you've been watching loads of (lesbian) porn, just quit doing it for a while. You need to explore different feelings other than just lust/sex drive, or it can turn into a fixation/obsession. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Scorpio Woman Posted January 29, 2018 Author Share Posted January 29, 2018 (edited) lol I expected these responses. She does know Im a lesbian. I just said it. I told her i had immense feelings for her. Let me tell yall how i did it though it was weird as hell. (Well i just recently lost my father and younger sister I had a breakdown with her and she told me to get some therapy blah blah.) So I started the convo off with ..."Hey Im going to get some Therapy because i have Immense feelings for you. She was startled. I mean just rolled right out of my mouth. Of course she said that was inappropriate and unprofessional. I told her i think i was just in a vulnerable place with everything being so recent : she embraced me and i got mixed up. Thats what i told her. Not sure if this is true still figuring that part out. Then she said "NO YOU were like that before and I ONLY text you to check on you because you had a breakdown" idk why she brought that part up she actually text me before i had the breakdown..... bt that's beside the point. Then I said well i don't want to get fired or make you uncomfortable! (MISSION ACCOMPLISHED LOL)she just walks away. So yea I may get fired. No, i don't have low self-esteem. People always tell me I'm beautiful, its actually getting old I wish people noticed things besides my appearance. For some reason, i want women i cant have. I dont feel bad for writing any of this stuff AND IDK why i dont feel bad. Who cares you only get ONE LIFE FORREAL. Im in a place where i just want to say and do everything(nothing illegal or cruel) i cant explain it. But i still like my boss the feelings are not as intense anymore. I can easily break through it, i just don't want to since IVE BEEN back to work ive been in a happier place mentally. Anytime i think normal i start thinking about my family so i block it out and think of her and this releases serious endorphins for me. I don't even want to think about anything else. So yes MAYBE she found me attractive not knowing me and felt bad for me but believe me when i say I dont go around just lusting over women, she sent subliminal messages it made me happy and I ran with it. I am not going to say anything else. We had to work together for 7 more hours after that she call me when she had to. I act normal she acts normal. I also go for broken women I could instantly feel her the moment she walk in the door so i find myself wanting to make her happy, And doing things out of my own selfishness. But she's amazing i know i could learn so much from her. She has real live paintings and stuff real Mozart. I am a Videographer/Comedian so my imagination is wild AND i can get carried away with everything. Anyway idc / I do sorta care......if i get fired at least shell know someone went out with admiration for her. Edited January 29, 2018 by Scorpio Woman Link to post Share on other sites
Author Scorpio Woman Posted January 29, 2018 Author Share Posted January 29, 2018 I dont like lesbians for some reason Link to post Share on other sites
Chilli Posted January 29, 2018 Share Posted January 29, 2018 You sound like a 16 year old. And if you do mess with her you''ll destroy her family , just for a 16 yr old crush. Link to post Share on other sites
justwhoiam Posted January 29, 2018 Share Posted January 29, 2018 For some reason, i want women i cant have. That's exactly what I meant. It was my first guess. You having low self-esteem was just a possibility. But you made it clear that's not your case. I also go for broken women Like the savior's syndrome? Or the need of taking care of a child but having no children, maybe that's how your caring instict comes up. Or the thrill of the drama. Who knows. she sent subliminal messages it made me happy and I ran with it. She probably didn't, but your fantasy's running wild. I dont like lesbians for some reason Then you're left with bisexuals. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Scorpio Woman Posted January 29, 2018 Author Share Posted January 29, 2018 Yes like that. Ive been off for 2 months when i got back to work it was only her 2nd day, so she is new. The fact that no one likes her makes me like her. She always blowing up on everybody her temper is SHORT. Also, I went outside to sit in my car for my hr lunch and i noticed her outside yelling at someone not sure who...could not be too much of a stalker lol. The biggest thing though is that she told me she loss her mother i definitely wanted to massage her feet after that. On an average day id look right pass her but being that she is in my face and im getting to know her I see the human in her and its so attractive. I also love that fact that she's such a great Artist. I mean shes really good. Im hella nervous about going back to work though i called out today. Link to post Share on other sites
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