Damaged

[mortensorchid]

I have been hurt by many a person in life. I was told by an acquaintance from my college years that I'll never marry or have children. I'm 43, I can accept the fact that I will not get to have children. I feel like no one wants me. And even if I meet someone who does show even the slightest bit of interest in me, I feel like he'll find some stupid reason to dump me someday. Everyone has a reason or an excuse why it can't happen. So ... Why do I even try? No one wants me. They think I am crazy or weird or something, and they throw me over for someone else. And that woman ends up taking advantage of them or making them miserable and it ends in divorce or some horrible break up.

 

I never meet anyone without OLD and they are lousy at best. I'm usually so beat at the end of the day I don't want to go out on weekdays or whatever else to try to interact with people in a new situation (ex MeetUp groups). I'm just tired. Tired of the disappointments. Needed to vent.

[CautiouslyOptimistic]

Vent away! I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy . Remember everything is worse in the evening.....go to sleep and things will look at least a little brighter in the morning <3.

[Chilli]

Yeah , sorry for the crappy.

Think l'm starting to know how you feel. Different things happening but eh, still ending up in the same place.

[SevenCity]

I hear you about OLD. The women I've met have been riddled with issues to say the least.

 

Of all the women I have met here was one that I was really into. It was almost like it made everything worth it. Unfortunately, she did not feel the same.

 

I'm starting to wear my singleness like an old, comfortable leather jacket.

 

I used to get sad and frustrated but I expect to disappointments now and I'm kinda used to it.

[LoverOfDance]

Why does everyone sound so depressed? Stop feeding hopelessness by thinking and talking this way.

 

If you are not getting the results you want then you are doing something wrong. Stop doing the same old things you've been doing. You are driving yourself crazy. Change your approach and keep changing it until you get the results you want.

[hotpotato]

*hugs*

 

Sending positive vibes your way. Hopefully, things will start looking up soon.

[neowulf]

I have been hurt by many a person in life.

I'm just tired.

Tired of the disappointments.

Needed to vent.

 

You have summed up the experience of a lot of people here I'd wager.

It's hard coming to terms with a life you wouldn't have chosen for ourselves.

 

Vent all you like and take solace in the face you aren't alone in your pain. A lot of us are on the same journey along side you.

[neowulf]

Why does everyone sound so depressed? Stop feeding hopelessness by thinking and talking this way.

 

If you are not getting the results you want then you are doing something wrong. Stop doing the same old things you've been doing. You are driving yourself crazy. Change your approach and keep changing it until you get the results you want.

 

Some days you just don't have it in you to be "upbeat" and positive about the future.

 

Honestly, I get that you mean well, but this kind of "walk it off!" kind of attitude to emotional trauma annoys me sometimes.

 

If someone broke their back, you wouldn't be on their case about "Getting up and living!" would you?

 

Constant emotional pain takes it's tole, just like physical injury can. We aren't robots. There's only so many times you can fail, be disappointed, rejected, grieve .. before it starts to break you down at some level.

 

It's ok to wallow sometimes and simply be heard. The OP will get back on her feet. It's just nice sometimes to know that people share your pain.