NewLee40 Posted August 26, 2005 Share Posted August 26, 2005 Ok, yesterday I posted about a possible reconciliation with the boyfriend that I've been dating off an on for over a year now. I fell in love with him and gave him too many chances to change and took him back when I knew good and well that it would probably come to a bad end. But, we had a pretty good run there for a little while which was just enough for me to feel really secure with us, and whamo....he did it again. I've spent the last month and a half with no contact, trying to do everything I can to accept that this is not meant to be, but the grieving process has been quite difficult. Of course, as they so often do, he resurfaced again. I was almost back on my feet enough to resist it, but then I lost my resolve. But, this time, it was different. I was feeling a bit more realistic and not ready to rush back into our regularly scheduled program. For a variety of reasons, both known and unknown, I think he realized that I wasn't going to play the game anymore, and he bolted yet again. I've had enough of this. Finally. So, I'm starting a new chapter in my life. Hence the name, NewLee40. My name is LeAnne and I just turned 40. So many things are new in my life as I begin what I believe to be the second act. I've been a single mom for the last 11 years and my sons are high school students. It took me a long time to recover emotionally and physically from a marriage that would make a really good Lifetime Movie for Women. LOL Its been a struggle for sure. I've overcome a lot of obstacles in my life to get to where I am today. I won't bore you with all the dramatic details. Let's just say I went through a deep depression, gained a lot of weight, finally lost it (120 pounds to be exact), overcame some health problems, raised two wonderful kids in spite of some very difficult circumstances, recently finished my college degree, and just secured my dream job. I run an online support forum for people who are trying to lose weight, I write, and I've begun a side business as a weight loss coach that has really taken off. Now that my boys are ready to leave the nest, and I have time to think more about myself, I'm excited about what the future holds. I would like for it to hold a loving, healthy, relationship. So, I had to let go of this guy to find it. He wasn't the one. He wasn't even close. But, I still love him and I still have healing left to do. So, I'm not ready to start dating again. I'd like to have fun, meet people, and get an idea of what it feels like to be this new person who is so different from the woman I knew just 5 years ago. The harried, hassled, depressed, woman who underestimated herself in every way. Now, I'm happy, confident, and ready to enjoy my life. I start my new job next week, and I'm remodeling my house, I'm making new friends, and getting rid of dead weight. Can't wait to see how it unfolds. Link to post Share on other sites
EIN Posted August 27, 2005 Share Posted August 27, 2005 I am happy that you overcame all your ordeals and finally say to yourself, that you made it, with your own two hands. Good for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Mary3 Posted August 27, 2005 Share Posted August 27, 2005 I am very Proud of You You have overcome sooo much....Please keep posting here when you are ready to date so we can help if you want it.... While you are here just read the many posts and this hopefully can help you when re-entering the dating world Link to post Share on other sites
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