passing by Posted August 29, 2005 Share Posted August 29, 2005 Why is it that no matter how bad he screws up, I am supposed to keep calm and not blame or judge him, but when I screw up it is like I am the stupidist moron on earth. I just scratched his truck ( I scratched my car in the process and it looks way worse than his dumb truck). Well you'd think I totalled it completely the way he's acting. GAWD. It's better to just steal someone's identity, move to Mexico, and start a brand new life rather than walk in the door and confess that you've done a dumb thing. I mean he acts like he wishes I were dead. I hate it. If I added up all the money he's cost me in the past 20 years, it would be well over what it would cost to fix his dumass truck. Not that he will fix it. If he did that, he wouldn't have any ammunition to use to suck the joy out of my life for the next year or ten. All the old stuff he used to suck the joy out of my life has gotten old and tired and I don't care about it anymore. I can recall his having tried to tow a car of mine with a chain and the chain broke and the car was smashed all in the back. Do you know what I said? I said it was only a car and an old one at that. I swear I did not come down on him or b*tch at him for it. I figured, what for? What was done was done. Why can't men be like that?!!!! I am sure I will be in his own personal version of purgatory for the next year at least over this. He does love his truck. Washes it more than he washes his body. It's 1 year new, and yes, it's always shiny and purty - or was until I banged into it. If I wasn't so darn old, I'd probably run away to Las Vegas or something. Keerist, I'm tired. Link to post Share on other sites
RecordProducer Posted August 29, 2005 Share Posted August 29, 2005 And why is it normal for someone to stay with a person who sucks up all the joy out of her life and treats her like that? Life is joyful by default. When you have choices, you pick what you want and enjoy it. The uncertainty that scares us so much is the most challenging and adrenaline pumping thing in life. Do you want to grow old with this man? Or would you rather live on your own? When does life stop being life and when does vegetation start? You can live the way you want to live and do whatever you want. Listen to your heart! Link to post Share on other sites
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