Identity Theft

[blackendangel13]

Ok so I have finally accepted its over. I have been repeatedly ripping my heart open to try to be "friends" with him hoping he'd wake up one day and realize how stupid he was to let me go. I have been doing NC to heal myself and hope that he missed me. Well I finally got my answer and although I am not liking it and it hurts, I am happy I have what I need to move on.

 

Three months after we broke up he slept with some chick. He told me he never wanted to be with anyone else and that us breaking up had nothing to do with me. Not to mention that I had cut off all contact less than a month before her. When I met her, I knew in my gut that he'd screw her. It was the single worst feeling in the pit of my stomach. I thought I was going to throw up. Despite all the times he said he could not stand her I knew better.

 

So he screwed her and to make matters even worse, I had a party about a month ago (we have only been talking and hanging out a few months) and he brought the bitch to my house. He claims they are just friends and bla bla bla. I was so pissed but I held it in. I was a good hostess and tried not to think about it but I was crushed. I don't think he could have done anything more hurtful. Apparently this girl had been fighting with her man and ran to my ex for comfort. I already see a problem there. That is something I could never deal with if we got back together.

 

Well my friend calls me yesterday and tells me he hung out with my ex Friday night. I asked him where and he said this chicks house! My friend had met her at my party. Not only that but she cooked for everyone, which is what I do. I cook for my friends all the time. First she screws my ex, now this bitch is cooking for my friends! To add to my horror, my friend tells me how much she is like me and we would get along great. Talk about a knife in my heart. My ex's best friend is a shorter, more tattooed version of me.

 

So this pretty much shows me where I stand. Why have me back if he has her? I am just wasting my own time here and putting up with him stringing me along for nothing. Not to mention its very creepy that the chick he tried to have a relationship with is EXACTLY LIKE ME. Time to cut my losses.