jokerofdeception Posted September 2, 2005 Share Posted September 2, 2005 ok, as an extention of my other posts, we broke up because i was an insensitive jerk and pushed her away alot. I had told her on many occasions it was because my previous ex up and left me with no notice whatsoever so i was careful with my feelings. The current ex treated me like nobody has ever treated me in my life, and it scared me to a point, because while i was with her she was really clingy (she never had her real mom) and nobody had ever loved me so much in my life. I had some bad Chrones flair-ups and they brought me down the last 6 months of our relationship and then i was on disability for awhile and on alot of medications that made me highly agitated and angry, and pretty soon she was out the door. She wrote me and told me she wants to love me again and shes sorry for leading me on then pushing me away thru our breakup process. She said her mind keeps giving her reasons for not wanting to go back that i hurt her too much and pushed her too far away. She said we are in different places (mentally) because of our relationship problems and she doesnt have the energy to love me and that she is sorry. So I didnt write her back and then she tried to contact me via aol, and she was getting very frustrated because i was sitting there not responding. I emailed her back telling her i know we aren't getting back together, that we need to go our seperate ways right now, but she cant hold everything against me like that, because it wasnt fair, i was sick and depressed, that i want to leave this relationship with a clean slate and i thanked her for being a wonderful girl and opening my eyes up when she left etc. NOW she calls last night and leaves a message "i dont know why i called really, just wanted to hear your voice, sorry for calling" and man she tells me she knows she is pulling me back and forth and tells me shes letting me go, then she texts and calls me. What the hell? haha i am doing the NC and am fed up with this, i cant even cry anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
LucreziaBorgia Posted September 2, 2005 Share Posted September 2, 2005 i am doing the NC May as well do it all the way, and block all incoming methods of contact so that you won't even know she's doing it. Then you can really begin to move on. Link to post Share on other sites
Art_Critic Posted September 2, 2005 Share Posted September 2, 2005 May as well do it all the way, and block all incoming methods of contact so that you won't even know she's doing it. Then you can really begin to move on. This is great advice.. You have been given this advice before and maybe now you can realize that you have to do it in order to heal and move on. I hear you loving the drama and power .. for someone who admits to treating her like crap during the relationship you ought to know that by continuing this the way you are, you are treating her like crap all over again. Link to post Share on other sites
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