rdsmm Posted September 5, 2005 Share Posted September 5, 2005 Last year of school starts tommorow, and after seeing my course lineup that made me go over the line. I haven't been looking forward to this year because first the anxiety not of fearing all the social activity but showing myself even more. showing up in the old tattered threads from last year (i know thats nothing, shallow ****, but it doesn't help since I have a pair of jeans and a couple of shirts because I have no money) I screwed myself over last year, because I dropped about 4 of my courses and have to fill up the new year with ones much more challenging than I was used to. Waking up and walking for an hour to school on weak stilts ( I have some knee condition ) Sorry It's hard to explain and it seems like this is all brought on by my own laziness. I admit it was all brought on by myself and I have no problem accepting that, but I just wonder what the point is in struggling this only to find that I don't pass this year or the next and so on. I would rather see myself working full time and making money to enjoy myself further, and then when needed, completing night school at my own pace (and as to not make it an every day stress) To elaborate, my anxiety is through the roof.. I won't bother explaining it as you could probably almost assume the worst. I stress over everything aswell which leads me to thinking negative, to procrastination, which leads back to stress. I would be much happier at a minimum wage trap job than what I've been doing. I have no plans for furthered education once highschool is over. I know it's very possible to be successful without even a grade school education, not saying that it's much of a selling point. The one thing I would regret about leaving school is the friends. to summarize in a question, what am I not seeing or is this a reasonable plan? Link to post Share on other sites
rschief Posted November 5, 2005 Share Posted November 5, 2005 what state do you live in, now some states do not let you get a drivers liescence if you quit school. and you can not go in the army, minimum wage is hard to live on. and i qiut school in the 80s' when it was not as tough on people, but I can say you are feeding into other issues you can not see yet about your mental state, and it is true once a qwitter always a qwitter. or i should say it is hard to overcome. there are many poor people, but having money may not be considered poor in achievments you can foster for yourself. find a part time job that offers uniforms. you can check with churches or a community action center and find out were some places to get free clothing, or some second hand stores for clothes or their vouchers. hang in there, plan out as much as you can before you react, i can say myself, if i had only knew Link to post Share on other sites
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