TurntSloth1 Posted September 10, 2018 Share Posted September 10, 2018 So it's finally happened. We'd been completely NC for a while until she recently reached out to me via Insta DM to ask how I was. I completely ignored it until a week later until she asked again. "I'm good, thanks." No more said, but she'd piqued my curiosity at this point. ****. I've had one eye on her Instagram profile ever since, and whilst completely getting on with my life and generally feeling quite happy with the way things are going, I've known I was playing a dangerous game. Well today after one piece of 'evidence' too many I am finally convinced that's she's back with her ex. -A couple of weeks back she posted a pic from a train station that takes her to her ex's location (he lives in a different city) -On this weekend, she'd also posted stories on the friday night and saturday morning - she was wearing the same clothes in both. -A week later (weekend just gone) she posted another story tagging herself in the city her ex lives -Even though I was convinced at this point it wasn't until today that I was sent over the edge when I spotted that she has added his sister and they've started commenting on each other's stuff. It's all the evidence I need and I don't know how to feel. Devastated initially, but also relieved? I feel like the door has finally closed on us for good. Without going into the details of my story, I felt that even when we stopped talking or **** happened between us, we'd always sort it out and there was a chance we could try again when the dust had settled and we'd moved on. The last time we spoke in person things were good between us and she was saying she hadn't spoken to him for months and finally felt in a place where she was over him and happy again - looking back I should've seen the fact she even mentioned him meant that wasn't true. Idk, I'm just rambling I think, this literally just happened and I can't sleep... I whilst I feel relieved in the knowledge that this was always going to happen and I never stood a chance, I also feel like that whole last 18 months has just been a lie. Did I mean anything to her? She sure as hell did to me... yet the whole time she was just waiting for the moment they would get back together. I feel like a complete mug. This whole scenario is so cliche and yet I fell for it hook line and sinker. I don't like to think I'm a petty or spiteful person but I also hate the fact that she has used me for her benefit when they split in the first place and is now back with him living her dream scott free, it doesn't feel fair at all. This is really upsetting... I'll block her again now but I know it won't stop me thinking about her - why is life so hard?! I'm not sure what advice I need really, just ranting but any input valued - hope that's ok Link to post Share on other sites
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