Do I contact him or not?

[somuchmusic]

I was at a conference in Portugal a week ago. On the first day I met one of the hosts who was helping us out with technology. We instantly clicked and spent the whole day talking. He was caressing my arm, smiling, going above and beyond to help me out (more than the other attendees). I didn't even notice it until another attendee pointed out we looked kind of snugged. The second I realised I actually liked him and was insanely attracted to him, I freaked out and started pulling back. I would walk into a room and pretend I didn't see him. In the evening he approached me and asked me if I was okay. I said I was tired. He bought me a drink and then we just sat with different people.

 

The second day was a bust. He came to greet me in the morning, but again, after, I just played dumb. If you ask me why, I was scared. I have very low self-esteem and he is very attractive and outgoing. So I left Portugal without saying bye to him. Now, I don't live in Portugal although I do plan to go back relatively soon because I have made so many amazing friends there, but I can't stop thinking about him. In all honesty I don't even know if he is in a relationship or not. Plus, him being super tactile could be because he is Portuguese and they are very affectionate. What I do know is that I want contact with him. Clearly I am not in love with him, I have known him for a week. But he was so sweet to me, so helpful and kind and sparks were flying while we were talking. It doesn't happen often to me. I know it is crazy, but life sometimes just is.

 

Do you think I should message him and just ask him how he is doing. I want him in my life, if only as a friend.

 

Thanks.

[d0nnivain]

You have nothing to lose. Go ahead & reach out