What does she mean is this break or break up

[TheluckyBoy]

Hello guys, (Doing this for first time ever btw).Hope this is in the right section.

I'll try to tell you the story shortly, but if someone wants i can write the whole picture because the details are important as u know.

 

I'm from Bulgaria 27 and she's from Poland 26.

We met the end of may,she was on a vacantion in my country and i was the Bartender supervisor in my hotel. I wasn't ready for a relation simply because i knew what's happening with tourists that come and go usually,but it happend.

Im verry good looking guy (the girls say it, but im modest) was suprised how often she was complimenting me, like 100times daily.Never happened before.Felt nice and pretty much after a month texting i go to her for 4 days.Everything was perfect,we had amazing time no sex i was a virgin and lets say that in my second coming in Poland i wasnt

You should know that she finished a relation in the start of may.Told me that she break up because'' he was cheated'', getting drugs, humiliated her,beated her pluck off her hair and she was upset not happy and the same time afraid and hated this guy.

Both of us had really incredible time toghether like a fairytale,but i want to add some bad moments :When i shared about my virginity,she was suprised and immediately asked me can she share with her best friend,she told me back then that she was thinking its impossible.Second thing.. some guy called her durring my 1-st stay(she was honest and told me) he's a colleague from work and they had useing each other just for sex no attachment ,for last time in april.She also return the call of this guy not to call her ever again.Ok i felt really strange but after a while i found a text messages with her ex which were just 2-3 weeks old.The problem is that there was also photos of her that she was sending almost the same time to me and her ex,,, the **** ? Ok so its already july and their break up was ''may'', so... When i asked she replyed that when she's alone and drunk start to make mistakes like this.It wasnt easy but we moved on and forgive her.

Kay my 3-rd visit was a suprise (she didn't expected me at all).I did a beautiful love card this time.Didn't seemed to be happy ,she was shoked actually.Theres alot to say here but i'll share the important part :instead of my 3 dry roses that she's holding 2 months i saw in the vase a bouquet of roses ... mine was gone, and the panda,her 1-st gift not there(later i found it thrown in one of her lockers...)Obviously for you but not for me then, the ex was trying to get her back.Lets continue ,she came in Bulgaria, and i gave her the best 4 days ever, yacht on sunset, golden bracelet, incredibly spontaneous moments, expensive wine, restaurants etc...

It was the end of august, and we already was speaking of my moving in Poland, kids ,merrage a seriouse talking for our future.I was the best of me with her, supporting (her father had cancer btw) and not once she said that she is the luckyest girl ,confident like never,calm and happy.Only if you know how she was taking my head and starring my eyes, she was crying from happiness ,like she wasnt beleaving that im there and im hers.(magical moments truely..)Thats why i knew all this wasnt fake,,, bec of the eyes they cant lie.

Ok..we talked that my next coming will be in middle of september and she wanted to tell me something important.I go there and the news was that she is pregnant for sure ...after a long talk i was ready...all was good between us, she was calculating how many orgasms she have in a day,,, i was the God for her But..After i get back in Bulgaria we had a fight ,she offended me and i stopped talking to her for 3 and a half days.During this time i received couple excuse texts,but i continue my silence.She texted also theres good news and we're not going to have baby and i can calm down..wtf. (probably she thought thats the reason for my silence but it wasnt.I beleave that she was testing me with the baby story in Polnad btw. And a message arrive afterwords :she cant continue anymore and she's tyred of my humor changes,followed by 5 days of silence of her side.Will not forget 26th of September when i received her last messages: Dont contact me anymore,give me a break im with my ex i love him'' and the 2nd was pretty much same :Dont contact me,dont want to contact you anymore respect my decisions give me break, i will call police if u continue contacting.'' the **** ?

How is it possible to just turn back to all we had? What about all my and her effrot and feelings wow?funny. BTW(She didnt pick up the phone and i could only send sms texts so..)

Well im a guy whos not giving up and back then i though that this guy forced her and i decide to go there and save my princess''.Gave her time of 2 weeks during which i prepared(in case i cant see her)1 love letter and 1 letter with photos of us and pictures of her sweet words towards me out of the chat.I didnt called her during this time just sended 3 needy type sms messages but i had no reply.When i get there wasnt sure about her reaction and put my letter under the front door, knocked couple of times and went out.Wasnt sure if she's there or not and my first words in the letter were that if she wants to meet me im out if not to continue reading.Ok was waiting 2 hours out and she finally came out but with somebody (i think she called this guy and he came for support).Ok so i was focused and waited her and didnt pay attention of any boys going inside the apartament area...Saying that bec im sure she was alone inside her flat.They saw me,the guy started yelling that i must go immediately ,bec i become a stalker and they for sure will call police...I completely understand what he just shout at me and i was agree. wtf i was doing ...? Took a last eye look to her but she was looking only the ground not me and was silent... Like face was feeling guilty or something dunno.. but they really fast go probabply in his place direction(she didnt look back)

In the letter i mention where i was about to be for 4 days if she wants to meet me but ... nothing.

That happend on 12 October and since then im in NC... verry sad but starting get use to it, started improve my self and do what i loved to do before.I just hope she will do a contact but i dont know what i will do after.So if you could give advise of the situation i'll be thankfull.

[TheluckyBoy]

PS: She shared only once that her ex was coming by her flat,before her arrival in my country for the best weekend.She said that nothing happened then and she was pretending she's not home(they had 3 years relation, 2 of which terrible)And also im my last visit, after sharing with me about the pregnancy she also aksed me so badly both of us to run away.Change the city or just lets go in your county for few months...She was afraid of this guy, but i insist that she have to tell him **** off in the eyes and get rid of him,otherwise she will never get rid.Suggested my help but she told me taht he is capable of kill me so... better to stay away and so that just add in the story

[ExpatInItaly]

You need to forget this girl. She is not the most stable or mature, and she's with her ex again. And whatever you do, no more unannounced and unwelcome visits to her place. That is really not appropriate when she has asked you very clearly not to contact her.

 

You got attached to a girl you don't actually know very well. Talking about marriage and kids and moving to her country was a fantasy with no solid basis in reality - you two didn't know each well enough to sincerely plan a future together. You had some fun memories together, but it is not enough to hold a couple together when one person is in love with someone else (her with her ex, in this case)

 

It's over now, and you need to accept that. This was too messy to ever really have a chance.