Stuck

[TruthSeeker5]

I'll do the best that I can to keep this post as concise as possible.

 

There is this girl that I know and we've been off and on since college. If I were to put a time frame on it, we're a little over 8 years of knowing each other. We never had a long term relationship or anything but the chemistry was there. She was always the one who disappeared from my life and came back later.

 

This year she did it again and we reconnected. We talked about dating and being in a relationship but needless to say, it never happened. She was getting over a failed engagement and there was always a possibility that they'd reconcile. I lost my job and this year I've been on a hunt for a new one. I feel like I'm getting close but of course the things that we want never happen when we want them to. This year, I applied for work with my local job placement service. The purpose of doing so was to qualify for my unemployment benefits.

 

I didn't open up to her much about my situation because I don't have to explain myself to anyone and two, I wanted to focus on us instead of our problems. Later this year, money had gotten tight. My phone got disconnected and I just had to cut back on some stuff. She ended up getting a job with the job placement service a few weeks before my phone got disconnected. And although I had another number where I could be reached. She sent me some cryptic emails that caused me to slow down a little.

 

The first email was titled "Employment opportunities" with two links leading to a job posting site. I didn't have an issue with this but it feel a tad bit invasive to me. I responded saying "Interesting" after a few days of interviewing. Then she responded to me with an email talking about how she was only looking out because my information had landed on her desk..kind of ironic.

 

What bothered me was the way she ended her email. She ended it with

"{Brittany Out}" (That isn't her real name by the way)

 

Basically, she threw up the deuces at me and ever since that day. I've been hesitant to call her again. Before we lost contact due to my circumstances, she called me everyday but it was only Monday - Friday and during business hours. On the weekends we didn't speak and we hadn't saw each other much either.

 

It isn't like she has checked in with me to see if I'm been okay or anything like that. Its weird because I can't tell if I should cut her off or reach out again.

[d0nnivain]

She likes you when it's convenient but doesn't want to date you. She sent the employment stuff to be helpful but isn't interested in dating you.

 

Back off this woman. She is the one who got away / never was / never will be. Stop chasing her.