I am fallible but I have a heart

[Hotdiggitydammit]

Yes, I know that I can do things that just dont make sense. But I am learning more about how to heal from my terrifying past and empower myself to change for the better good of me. I am happy I have taken the first step to realizing which will help me in the future. Go ahead and ridicule me. We all know that I can be naive sometimes. But something that I learned today is that the people I love are the ones that forgive me and understand that I make mistakes. I have acknowledged my behaviors and will work towards building self confidence. I hope everyone understands that I am not a person who wishes for others to fall on negativity. I ask you to see through my eyes and hope that you understand me better. When I have better control and learn about this unanticipated and was not caught until this past Monday. They say that my behavior stems from the fact that my heart rate is really high but at no point it appears to go to rest, like it should during sleep. This causes me to feel like I am in a constant panic because it is making my body to be in constant anxiety right now. But with medication and proper therapy, this should allow me feel better soon. I hope that you understand, but if you need a hand, I will do everything I can to help. I want to work as hard as I can, so that I improve myself. Please don't be a stranger, everything is starting to get under control. I want to be there for my mate with my emotions under my power when she will need a little help from my strength. I have already found the power to only be here for posting. So whatever is out there being written. I have not an idea. It no longer can take that satisfaction away from me to cause any more anxiety. I leave these forums here with pride that the poison of the posts will no longer trap me. I leave with a glimmer of hope and find that "Sunshine" to our world.