band camp drama, need help.

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I met this hot guy.....during band camp last year. Me, being the shy person that I was (and still am), didn't really talk to him. Conversations with him were short 'hello, how are you' type deals, and these conversations usually occured when I was in a group of people, or with at least one other person. He seemed to be a really nice, interesting guy. I had a crush on him.

 

I think he picked up on that fact that I was shy and that I liked him because this year, back in band, he smiled at me alot more, he got in my personal space more, we talk a bit more, and then two weeks ago, he randomly tried to kiss me in a people crowded area.

 

He didn't land the kiss, no...nononono...instead I freaked out on him, shoved a hand between our faces, and told him to step off (in so many words). And he did. That was so awkward, he caught me completely off balance. That moment was so fast, I was left thinking, WTF? I don't know what happened afterwards, I think I hopped on a bus and went home. I wasn't expecting that to happen....in fact, that was the last thing that I thought would ever happen in my life span. This sort of stuff NEVER happens to me.

 

Anyway, as I reflected the night after that experience, I'm thinking I should go apologize to him, and explain myself.

 

Two days later, I pull him aside, after band practice, to make sure that that kissing thing was fer real, I asked him if he remembered. He said he doesn't. I was disappointed to say the least.

 

And now, all talking from him has stopped. It feels real funky to be around him now, I have no idea what to do. I really like him. If that kissing thing didn't happen where and when it did, I would of kissed him. I would been on him like bees on honey.

 

I'm 19 (going 20 in 4 days), up till this point, I have not been approached in a romantic manner, by a decent, my age, guy that I actually found attractive. Apparently I'm not fugly, but definetely not hot enough to be hit on by average guys. A couple of them think I'm already taken. I don't know where that assumption came from. Anyway, the ones who do, hit on me, are homeless men, I'm thinking are really desperate, and dudes in cars.

 

So, what do you think? Is there a prayer's chance I can get with the hot band man, or is this a lost battle?