Osho Posted May 20, 2019 Share Posted May 20, 2019 I’m not one to stay up late. But a few weeks back I couldn’t sleep. So I decided to go peruse Walmart and buy some things I didn’t need to work on one of my daughters cars. I quickly scanned the usual places my ex would park as it was the time she would be there. Coast was clear. 30 minutes into killing time I walked right past her. So I quickly checked on the last few things I needed and went to check out hoping to avoid her. As I walked in the 7 items or less isle she was the only one there in front of me. She paid and left and so did I. Then by the time I got to the parking lot she was out there parked beside my other daughters car by chance. We talked a little and she said she actually parked there by chance? At this point i was trying to figure out why on earth this would happen. I was in the process of trying to let her go in my mind. Like years of internal resolution and growth. Countless attempts at trying to be who she wanted and never being enough. Let alone how incredible manipulative and toxic she was then. We still talk occasionally but I came to post the story as it has been amazing in finally seeing all the things I never could before. How many times I was a shoulder to cry on or a good listening ear. But never once has she even cared to inquire about me. How she is still chasing after people who don’t love her and ignoring ones that do. I can see red flags to not even be friends or on speaking terms anymore. It’s like every time we interact I see more of the things I was blind to when I was in love with her. I’ve never been so happy to bump into someone I was trying avoid in all my life. So much weight has been lifted off my mind. It’s good to be that much more free of having someone rent so much space in my thoughts... Link to post Share on other sites
CautiouslyOptimistic Posted May 20, 2019 Share Posted May 20, 2019 Glad you're finding that closure. I admit, your post ended in a completely different way than I thought it was going to! I still scan parking lots for my ex's truck every time I go to the store or anywhere he might be, hoping I never run into him, so I get it! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
lonelyplanetmoon Posted June 2, 2019 Share Posted June 2, 2019 Countless attempts at being who he wanted and never being enough. This is exactly where my relationship is at. I have had enough. Thanks for posting that it is possiiblle to see it in an objective light someday. How long did it take you to get there? Link to post Share on other sites
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