FWB came "popping in" and I jumped on it

[Lisa_Lisa]

To recap, I fell hard for someone and it went on for two years. It ended with him getting back with his ex and them moving in together. He wavered back and forth with me till he actually came to see me for a month and then stopped coming around when he lost his job, i.e. no more excuses for "working late."

 

 

I feel like a woman possessed and I can't get him out of my head especially when he does text me or "like" a photo or screenshot a snap of me.

 

 

I decided to move on and I've gone back on the dating apps and am talking to some men, but I'm mostly doing it in effort to move on as fast as I can.

 

 

This morning I woke up from a dream about him and it made me miss him. Then a couple of hours later I got a text from him and we went back and forth with small talk. I casually told him about the dream and he said he was glad I was still thinking of him. I sent him a chaste picture of me smiling and then he sent me one of him lying in bed and then wrote, "be well."

 

 

When he writes that it means goodbye forever based on our history and I feel ****ty that I jumped on it and asked why he was leaving so soon and he said he must (I guess to avoid feeling temptation) and I wanted to call him (I did this once before and he answered) so when I did it again, he cut off the phone call then wrote he was just popping up and this is all he can do for now, ttyl.

 

 

 

And I feel like **** now. I believe in my core he will come back to me (I don't care in what capacity), but he's entangled right now. His choice.

I do want to move on and I'm actually doing it. His reaching out to me satisfied that part of me that asked the Universe to have him keep in touch with me, but I hate that I acted so desperate.

 

 

I'm sorry I'm just venting.

 

Thank you for any replies.

[ExpatInItaly]

I remember your past threads about this guy.

 

You are never going to find happiness as long as you keep laying out the welcome mat for him. He’s never going to come back in any serious capacity, and this will prevent you from meeting a guy who would love to be your boyfriend.

 

We’ve advised you so many times to drop him, but since you won’t, you might as well get used to living in this sad place. You also might as well be honest with yourself that you haven’t moved on. If you had, you wouldn’t spring to action when this clown uses you for attention.