The story of how I fell in love

[jamiejones99]

I never met him while we were at the same school. I was the nerdy girl and he was the dropout bum. We met again by mutual friends years later, but I started dating one of our mutual friend instead. During the year that lasted my relationship, we rented a house with a group of friends. He was one of them. We were always hanging out and we always had fun. I never really felt like we were close, like something was stopping us from being emotionally close. We never really touched each other either. We never hugged or sat close to each other. But even with this, it felt good. We were good friends. Everytime the group was hanging out and I was told he would be there, I knew I would have a great time. He was so calming and fun.

 

Then, a couple of months ago, I broke up with my boyfriend. He and I kept hanging out as friends and he kept hanging out with my ex too.

 

I don't know how, when or why, but one night we were watching a movie as we were doing pretty often and something changed. The atmosphere changed. I think we both realised the same night that we cared more than we thought for each other. Maybe it was the reason we never really been close. I know I always had an interest for him but I thought it was only as good friends. We never talked openly about it, it just felt natural that I started playing with his hair then he played with mine and he rubbed my back. We never kissed. We ended up sleeping in the same bed, but we never cuddled.

 

Since that first time, it happened 2 other times and each time we were coming closer together. Friday was the third time. We were having an horror night with our friends (it was friday the 13th) and he ended up staying after the others left to watch both of the Sinister movies. We watched a third film (a comedy to be able to sleep) but he fell asleep on it. He woke up 30 minutes after and he just turn around to give me a gentle kiss on the forehead and he turn back to fall asleep again. I woke up very slowly the next morning and I guess it was because he was playing with my hair when I woke up. We were pretty close, but we got even closer when he started rubbing my neck, my shoulders, my back, my head, my arms, my sides. We ended up so close that my nose was touching his chest and his chin was on the top of my head. Then, he had to leave to go to work.

 

Saturday, I kept on thinking about those nights. I've never been treated that way. It makes other ways feel wrong. For once, I feel that somebody sees my mind before my body. Nothing happened, but at the same time something happened. There's no labels for it. We are not more than friends, but we are not typical friends either. It's weird. With him, I've never had those butterflies. It was always so calm, beautiful and relaxing. I never had to wonder what I had to do. It came naturally. With him, stress, anger, sadness, fear,... They all go away.

[Maddie82]

You've grown comfortable with each other and things just feel natural between you. There is definitely a deep connection and you both clearly feel the same way, but you both seem too nervous to admit it. I love those simple yet very meaningful things, like gently rubbing your shoulders and back. It's intimate without being intimate. Sounds like you got something lovely between you. Hope it works out