Ran into MM

[LIRR88]

It's just so weird how things can happen so unexpectedly. I dropped off my daughter at school a-little earlier than usual this morning because it was raining. I walked to the bus stop with my friend like we do every day and low and behold guess who's bus pulls up, yup MM (he is a bus operator). I was so surprised and the look on his face said it all, he looked upset and uncomfortable. As I swiped my metro card he looked down nervously, he couldn't even look me in the eyes. After 4 months of not seeing or hearing from him he treats me that way. He looks awful btw, his energy was way off, he's gained weight, and he looks miserable. It's so crazy to me, a year ago we were friends falling in love, today we are complete strangers. I don't even know who that person is anymore. I thought I'd be okay but I feel so sad after seeing him. I know my last emails have been harsh, and I'm sure that's why he hates me, but words are nothing compared to his actions towards me. I know I shouldn't let these emotions get to me, I just can't help but feel depressed. Even though I know he's no where on my level, and I deserve a lot better than him, it hurts and it's gonna take a while for me to heal

[Maddie82]

Why are you feeling bad for him? He cheated on his wife who i'm assuming found out about his affair then he dropped you like a hot potato. He gave you all the classic lines a MM gives to his mistress, 'wife is a bad person, wife treats me bad, wife doesn't do anything for me', all the while using his daughter as an excuse not to leave. He would never have lost his daughter and would still have been in her life even if he wasn't with his wife anymore. He strung you along, used you. Don't feel sorry for him.

[mark clemson]

Yes, give yourself some time to heal. NC is good for most folks, seeing him would trigger these feelings again. And it's true you hardly know him. If you continue keeping away from him you will probably do fine.