Regret - Very Wrong and Stupid Move

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There was this colleague of mine who is working morning shift and whom I like the first time I saw her. Honestly, I was in-love at first sight to her. As the days goes by at work, I started to like her more.

 

Flowers, quote artworks, and chocolates. I don't know what I was doing since I was a 90's kid and I have been single for 7 years and the way I court a woman in this manner. She was surprised at first and of course, she was clueless why am I giving her this stuff to her. It's a good thing that a friend of mine told her that I like her and I want to court her. As it grows, we started to have a chat conversation in Messenger and I continuously gave her the same stuff. The wrong move I made was that I didn't let her know about my intention of courting her. Her friends were also my spies to see on what's going on.

 

There was this one-time that all of us were busy and she didn't have that much time to reply on chat and I assumed that she was mad or will ask me to stop on courting her. When she had the time to reply on my chat, I told her that I will stop the romantic and sweet gestures that I am doing. It was stupid of me to call that decision and you may want to read the next paragraph.

 

After an hour when I made the decision, I suddenly felt an urge that it was a wrong call. A spy (a friend of her's) told me that she was crying and that make me look like an idiot. I tried to message her and she was frustrated that I am having regrets on my decision and she thought that I was toying or playing her. Kind of sucks, but I want her back.

 

A day after I made my decision, I went to her at her place to apologize and to meet her parents since she have introduced me through my profile pic in Facebook. However, I have only met her father and told him my side and show him how regret I am. Her father didn't mind and was happy about on what I did. He simply that if I love her daughter, I should continue no matter what.

 

After a few days, Friday and Saturday. By Friday morning, she sent me a message that she wants to talk to me and I can really feel that she's still angry, mad and frustrated on what I did. However, she show a little concern since I am working graveyard shift that I must have rest and we will deal with our trouble by Saturday. Saturday, it arrived. We met in a restaurant near at her place and we talked about the problem that I have made. I told her that I was regretting so much and it drops me off my knees to have her back. It kills me at the same time after I made the decision because I love her and I am not looking a relationship the same guys do but I am looking for a relationship where the both of us have wide understanding. She really wants me to stop and I said no. I told her that we can start from the scratch for us to fix this. She agreed and then we went home and I called her through Messenger and we talked for almost 6 hours.

 

As I have woke up, I remember that her father was asking me to join them in her cousin's birthday. She told me to pick her father up at their place and go to the event's place. We have a conversation where she share what she wants to do such as art and business. I even told her to have her ideas written down in case in the future, she wants to use them. As the event goes by, we get to know each other. We even have a videoke sing-a-long where she and I were singing to answer back the songs that we sing to each other. She even told me that her friends doesn't like me for her because of the decision I made. To that day, I was mixed emotions but I can't blame them since I am the one who's at fault first. As the day ended, her family was asking me to go back to their place but she told me that it was already late and I told her that I will call her instead.

 

As I have called her, I asked if she was happy since I was happy since I met her family and have a great time with her. Unfortunately, she said that she couldn't answer me about it. In addition, she was mad because I was with her at her cousin's birthday. I told her that in case that her father will invite me again, I will just make up an alibi even though it is hard for me to do.

 

Based on my story, can anyone help me understand each scenarios that happened? Up until now, I am regretting my stupid move and decision.