Why did time stood still for me when life goes on for everyone?

[wtm78]

I don't understand why keeps standing still for me. I can see the second hand on the clock continue to move, the birds continue to fly around. Everyone continues their life. But for me, nothing moved. At this point, it feels like I went back in time to meet the little child that I was. Alone, afraid, and unloved. Those days I told myself it's ok. I need to grow up fast. When I grow up, and everything will be fine.. today, I'm still alone, afraid and unloved. What do I tell myself? 

 

Any of you feel that way? U feel u Wana escape? Want to run away? 

[OpenBook]

I'm so sorry you felt/feel that way!! Hurts my heart to read that, just want to wrap my arms around you and give you a big warm Mama Bear hug.

To answer your question - yes I've wanted to escape/run away as a result of my childhood experiences. But the reason was the opposite - my parents smothered me. In some ways I think I'm still rebelling against that control-freak atmosphere. And I'm pushing 60!

I do know this - God loves you. He is right there with you. You are His precious child! He is waiting for you to turn to Him and grab ahold of His hand.

[Foxhall]

I do sometimes wish for the days of the past,

as my cousin says- the present is all that counts my friend,

2019 was a decent year- I made no progress in terms of reuniting with old friends but I made a few nice new ones.

if you are healthy go out and enjoy, build castles as the song says, make the most of your life and talents.