Turned a corner, the black cloud lifted

[mortensorchid]

For the last six years I had been under a black cloud.  I had a rejection that just cut me to the bone.  Let me explain...

About 6 years ago I was working a job where I had a crush on this coworker.  Probably the worst person on earth to have a crush on but it happened.  I put a present in his box in the office and then got his phone number.  Yes it was creepy and weird of me but I did it and it's the past.  After I was no longer at that job I texted him "Want to hang out?" And he texted back "I am not interested in you romantically sorry if that's too blunt".  I erased his number and the thread and never spoke a word to him again and he never to me.  I was able to block him on social networking and a few comments and things drifted in and others unfriended me over things but that's what it is.

Since the quarantine however, I turned a corner and I think the cloud has lifted.  Ever since then I thought "nobody wants me", "you'retoo old", "you'rean old maid", etc.  Now, I do think someone does.  Not that I know them now as we speak but I think that someone does.  Someday, somehow it can happen to me.  I don't let others get in my way of it - the ones who reject me get the women they deserve rather than me.  I can do anything.  And I refuse to believe that there is no lid for my pot.  I won't believe that one gal who told me that I will never marry because I am too weird.  I can and I will.

[Artdeco]

Oh there is definitely a lid to your pot - Somewhere somehow.The trick is - don’t want it too much.. because then u will fail.

[FMW]

I'm very happy for you mortensorchid.  Hold on to this mindset!

[Ruby Slippers]

This is a great shift in your thinking. It really is true what they say - get happy on your own, and then you become much more magnetic to friends and potential romantic partners. Attitude is huge, and the good thing about that is that you get to choose your attitude moment to moment.