HoneyLab88 Posted June 8, 2020 Share Posted June 8, 2020 . It sounds crazy to say this out loud because I've supressed my true feelings for a really long time. Me and my ex girlfriend separated many years ago -we were total opposites personality wise but had lots of shared interests. We had a classic 'push , pull' rollercoaster ride relationship and I absolutely adored her but she totally infuriated me at the same time. We argued like cat and dog but the love that we had for each other was so intense , ive never experienced anything like it. We connected on such a deep level , emotionally and she truly understood me and accepted me 'warts and all'. I know that our relationship wasn't sustainable long term because we burned each other out , it was exhausting but Ive never been able to gage that connection with anyone else and always feel like something is missing in new relationships. I feel like my perception on love and what it means to be in a healthy relationship has been tainted forever. She's long gone out of my life and it's not that I crave her as a person but I crave the connection , the same fire in a new relationship. I cant help but wonder , did we have it all but were just too young to handle it? or am I the problem in all of my relationships and she just loved me enough to accept my shortcomings. I feel that in order to truly find happiness I need to process and make sense of my thoughts. Link to post Share on other sites
snowcones Posted June 8, 2020 Share Posted June 8, 2020 When you say you had a connection with your ex, do you just mean that she loved you, but you don't feel like the others loved you? Link to post Share on other sites
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