Trying to fix things long distance...

[fallendown]

I was dating a marine from NC for two years, everything was great... we both were madly in love with eachother, and we were talking about starting our lives together and moving in together... He was shipped out to Iraq, and his mom died as he was on his way back home to be with his mother. I flew out to FL to visit him... things were awkward, and I know why... but I felt as if he didnt want to be with me anymore, so I broke up with him. I didnt do it to hurt him, I just felt un-wanted at the time... and have realized it was a huge mistake. When he returned to Iraq, I tried e-mailing him, sending him packages, and I even sent him a birthday card. I found out he had returned and I gave him a call and everything seemed fine between us. We've been broken up for about 3 months now, and I brought up the fact that I want to get back together with him, and that I'm really sorry... He was a little upset. Then I asked him if he wants to get back together, and he said "i dont know." He said he doesnt see us working out. After that conversation, I said I guess I have my answer, and that I will leave him alone. A couple of days later, he calls me and asks me if I can come out to see him. He said he's been thinking about it, and he wants to see me, and he wants to take things slow.

 

When I flew out to see him, everything was great. It was like we were back together. And then he said he just wants to take things slow. What the heck does that mean? We already live far apart, how much slower does it all need to go? I love him, and I have apologized to him... I asked him if he just wants to date other people, and he said no, that is not the case. I know what I did was wrong, and that is why I have done everything possible to make it up to him. Should i just take this all as a " heck no I dont want to be with you?" I even told him, at this point a NO would be better to hear than an I dont know... and he said he cant tell me NO, because he doesnt know. What should I do?