Author hotpotato Posted May 16, 2021 Author Share Posted May 16, 2021 4 hours ago, d0nnivain said: Be careful. My heart jolted when I read this. I thought you were committing arson. Glad you found a healthy controlled way to do something you enjoy. It's way past time to stop letting your family continue to hold you back. They have already held me back. There's no way to go back in time and change anything, so it is what it is. Link to post Share on other sites
d0nnivain Posted May 16, 2021 Share Posted May 16, 2021 I understand that. I'm thrilled for you that you are moving forward. Link to post Share on other sites
Author hotpotato Posted May 19, 2021 Author Share Posted May 19, 2021 (edited) On 5/16/2021 at 3:26 PM, d0nnivain said: I understand that. I'm thrilled for you that you are moving forward. I've been doing stuff and moving forward, the problem is everything is happening at the wrong part of my life. Its truly beautiful what happens when they don't stand in the way. The problem now is doing things in adulthood. Its more complicated to excel at anything into adulthood bc of life circumstances. Edited May 19, 2021 by hotpotato Link to post Share on other sites
Author hotpotato Posted November 8, 2021 Author Share Posted November 8, 2021 (edited) [ ] Update: im now on my way to being a pro at a certain sport. I can already play pro level games albeit low tier ones. 'Nothing practice can't fix. People have told me that I can go to regionals and be on tv, all that. That goes to show, just because one person can't make it, doesn't mean im the same. So much for being grandiose. All I had to do was practice. Re:being rebellious. Being considered smart is a funny thing. People think you are smart but also too stupid to have an origin idea in your mind. I no longer want to be the smart one or academic in any kind of way. The only thing that'll make me go back to school is pure desperation. My mom thinks the same way. She thinks I am active to spite her. Yes, everything must be about her and what she eats! She thinks my life is about her, what she wants., and who she wants me to be. I now understand that for many people, college is too alluring. People get addicted to the idea of their child being a doctor or vet, whether or not the child wants that is not taken into consideration. whats really at stake here is the ego of the people around the 'smart' person in question. Most people can't see that when they hear mighty words like school and college. [ ] [ ] Since I'm now more athletic than ever, I must also be just as dumb as ever. I grew up with that idea, too. Anytime I do something non-academic that kills my brain cells. I'm still angry, and im happy to hold on to it. Thats fine with me. That doesn't mean I don't have great things going on in my life. Im proud that I never became some fake version of myself no matter how much people told me I couldnt do it, could never be good at anything non-academic (not true!). Im proud that I never gave up my core self to please anyone, whether it be the family or someone on the internet. Edited November 8, 2021 by a LoveShack.org Moderator rude to other posters Link to post Share on other sites
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