Am I getting mixed signals?

[MarkHahn]

I decided to take a break from my LDR as there were too much tension between us. My ex could not take decision so I moved out. It helped me to realize that I am in love and want to be with him. During two months he took a rebound but constantly contacted me. He also asked about me and never claimed to friends we are not together. At the same time he acted like never before and started doing things I encouraged him when we where together. He bragged and wanted my approval. He also took care about me. I came back after this period and said that I want us to be together and this is what I feel. He said that he feels great alone and that there is someone but nothing serious, and that I am V.I.P in his life and do not want to let me go but we will not be together. When I pushed him later he told me that we never will get together again and said some hurting things that he was first over me. Since I came out he acts weird, like he reaches out to me and then not. He asks my friends how was it when he knows we spend time together, he invited me and a lot of my friends to his party but at the same time he invited there his rebound. This is so weird. I do not know what to think. I feel like his body language says something opposite to what he claims and he is kind of afraid of me and loosing me at the same time. So I need to step back for a couple of months like this. But have you ever been in such a situation?

[d0nnivain]

I don't understand how this is a long distance relationship (LDR) if you were living together. 

That said in the time apart you came to understand you truly love him but he learned he's happier without you. The problems you had been experiencing before you left were related to his ambivalence.  He never had the stones to break up but now that you did, he's relieved.  Relationships always default to the one who wants out so since he has said no to reconciling that is it. 

He is OK being friends with you but you can't handle that right now because you want more.  Being around him hurts.  So you have to distance yourself.  

[MarkHahn]

Hey, sorry. I meant we lived together it was not LDR. But everyone I asks about it claims that he acts totally opposite to what his body says. And this is also what I saw. And this is weird because the more I am away the more signs I got. Like sadness, like bragging, like he immediately starts saying about last thing to return we have. But he does not return it... Weird.